more difficult than my freshman year decision to give up on a math-friendly major in the name of narcissistic emonglish ('emotional english', for those following along at home) has been my decision to stay in boston despite the fact that i'm missing out on a life i loved in columbus.

i really miss ohio.

i have been having a two-day meltdown centered ( Read more... )

i am currently employed by my papou's company, which finds people jobs.
(i am a prize idiot for not using this service through my collegiate days.)

apparently, it's one of the largest staffing firms around.
who knew?

i loved my first day on the job, which consisted of answering phones, reading the company manual, answering questions from applicants, ( Read more... )

i am now solely relying on the mercy of my professors, because based on my grades alone,

i have failed every.single.final.thusfar.

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and the neighbor girls are being inadvertantly loud.
again.
they're great, but have laughs that carry several floors.

in three and a half months, i will have an apartment
and more ( Read more... )

the exhaustion has finally won. i no longer have the physical ability to stay awake.
i've only been up for 13.5 hours, but i'm already beat-to-crap tired.

my finals are this week, followed by commencement.
my parents, brother, grandparents, and extended family will be up on friday,
which is when the party may or may not start.
i'm pretty stoked ( Read more... )

the beatles know how to get me through,
as does reena.

i've been illogical lately, but i've also been acknowledging it.
(this is a good thing for me, really.)
i know that my last [friends] post was fueled by momentary longing
and a serious bout with sleep deprivation.
(i've had four cups of coffee today,
and my heart won't quit pounding.
i don't want to ( Read more... )

pisser. i'd like to ask myself how i've changed, but i'm quite afraid to think more than i have to today. 
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i'm more aggressive, more violent, less able to concentrate or control my emotions. i don't enjoy thinking anymore because this is all i think about. i am easily distracted these days, and i welcome the distraction. all it means is that i ( Read more... )

I'm going on a year, right? In five days and...oh, 7.5 hours (but who's counting?), I'll get to say that I actually survived the year.

This particular post knocked the wind out of me.

http://community.livejournal.com/ohiostateuniv/781889.html

I suggest you read, report, and repeat.

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I have been feeling quite volatile today, yelling at friends ( Read more... )

i am in a much better state than when i last posted in here.
my hormones are better in balance,
and things are starting to align for the better.

my finances are improving (slightly), which is great;
great enough, in fact, to stand alone.

i bought a few books the other day --
Self-Help by Lorrie Moore (a book doug recommended to me),
50 Jobs Worse Than ( Read more... )

prologue:  
this is angry, as i am angry.

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as per usual, i'm doing quite a bit of reflecting these days.

while working an overnight shift at the hospital tuesday night, i had to go to the e.r. via ambulance (1/2 a block away) because of a funny feeling in my chest. i forgot how much caffeine i had consumed ( Read more... )

from my latest myspace blog, and just in case you cared.
(i should know better.)
i miss los angeles.
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i find that i fall in love with places easily. i think it's because i go in to travelling with few expectations and very small agendas. when your standards are low, it's hard for places to let you ( Read more... )