My grandma had a quadruple bypass and valve replacement on her heart this week. I so wish I could be home with everyone. Even if I was home at MICA right now I wouldn't have been able to be there when she had the operation. She is doing really well. She has been having issues since sometime in September but never told anyone. She didn't want " ( Read more... )

This is something I want to remember. I never wrote about it in here and I am not sure why ( Read more... )

I keep smelling really peculiar things. Today on the bus someone smelled like a baby, like that weird combination of baby powder and baby poop. It's not a completely disgusting smell, but it is not a good smell. And just now I definitely smelled swimming pool. There was another strange scent I noticed today, but I cannot recall it now.

It is very rare that I remember my dreams. And on the occasion that I do remember I usually do not remember much. I had a dream the other night that I can only remember very little about ( Read more... )

Coming home from the market this African guy gave me his number. He actually wanted my number as well, but I don't have one to give him. His name is Djallo. He "would really like to see me again." It felt weird. Like being-in-a-movie weird. Like "Oh hello, I met this African guy in a Dutch market and he actually is just a nice guy who would ( Read more... )

I had a strange dream last night, of which I can only remember fragment. The dream was third person omniscient. I was basically there seeing everything all the way through but no one could see me ( Read more... )

I feel kind of weird when I think about that I am now twenty. How did that happen? How is it that I am no longer a teenager? And when did I suddenly become a junior in college ( Read more... )

I think, that when (or if, I suppose) I have grandchildren that I do not want to be called Grandma or Gramma. I think I want to be called something like Marguerite Helen "Margie" Cunha was called by her grandchildren: "Ava ( Read more... )

I'm very frustrated. I want to go home.

I feel panicked and my chest is tight. There is so much to do before I go, it seems. But there's not really. I only am bringing one large, large suitcase and a backpack. Maybe it will be a good thing for me to just be taking the bare minimum. Cleansing? I'm still feeling panicked right now though. This is SO daunting. All of it.