Okay?  I had to change my password for my LJ.  Anyone else have to do that?

Today was kind of boring.  Got out of school at 12:30, that was nice.  After that Brendan and I hung out till about 5-ish.  He went to some punk concert in Reading at the Silo [I have to idea if that is how you spell it].  He asked if I wanted to go but I passed on the ( Read more... )

I am a very happy girl right now.  Brendan and I talked today after school.  Yesterday I had Alli give him a note because she would see him and I wouldn’t.  He texted me later and said that he read the note.  He told me to meet him at this car tomorrow [which is today] so we could talk.  I asked him if it was going to be a bad talk and he said, “ ( Read more... )

I don’t mean to keep writing about this.  I shouldn’t feel bad because this is my journal but, I don’t know.  I just miss him so much!  This is harder than I thought it would be.  I am trying my hardest to stay strong for him but I am starting to fall apart.  I understand that when being in a relationship, at least a serious one, you become an us ( Read more... )

Last night was absolutely horrible.  I went to bed around 11 but I didn’t fall a sleep till around 2:30.  I got up and came on the computer because I couldn’t stand lying in bed just thinking.  I came on the computer and went on line and my friend David was on for a little bit so we talked.  When he left I just surfed the internet.  After staring ( Read more... )

I haven’t cried this much in awhile.  In a way it feels good but at the same time I hate it.  I feel so empty inside.  I didn’t realize how much I needed him till now.  I mean, I knew I needed him and that I really liked him but I never knew how strong that was until it’s…not there.  I texted him asking if this was a break meaning seeing other ( Read more... )

I can’t even begin to explain how I feel right now.  It’s a mixture of coldness and emptiness.  During church today Brendan texted me asking me to call him when I got home.  So, when I got home I called him.  I knew right away something was wrong just by the tone of his voice.  He was saying how he was down because of his grades.  He has been doing ( Read more... )

I feel like crap.  Once again I am sick.  My head feels like it is going to explode, I am constantly sneezing and coughing, runny nose, and I have the chills.  It’s probably from being so tired.  My body didn’t have enough energy to fight it.  I felt it starting last night.  Mostly in my head.  I wanted to just lie around and to nothing all night ( Read more... )

So pissed right now!  Just got done driving around with my dad.  I can’t stand driving with him.  I swear he either thinks I am an idiot or I have a death wish because he is always saying, “Stop!  Amanda slow down!”  When I am already on the break and going like 15mph.  I’m not an idiot I know what I am doing.  Yes I understand that he has more ( Read more... )

Not ready for school tomorrow.  I mean, I am ready to go back I’m just not ready to get up at 6 in the morning.  Having my rents home too is starting to drive me crazy, especially my mom.  Thank God I had a lot to do and wasn’t around the house 24/7.  Ugh, I just really do not want to get up at 6 tomorrow.  I am really, really not looking forward ( Read more... )

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It was a pretty good day.  Brendan came home today so that made it even better.  We got together around 4:30-ish.  I went out and got him hamsters and then he came up and I gave them to him.  He liked them.  Then we went down to his house to put them in their cage.  Theeen we went out to dinner.  I love going out to dinner, I don ( Read more... )