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Unattracted
Ugh, I'm not attracted at all. I look at pictures of him, and even him himself, and don't feel anything. I don't find him attractive. I just miss what we had. Is that wrong of me? Am I using him to get cuddles and play fighting and sleep overs and smiles? I am perfectly fine and happy without him, I'm just confused. How does this work? -
Concerned Best Friend
My best friend is known to have somewhat of a drug problem. She has confessed to me that she only feels herself when shes high, which explains why she smokes pot everyday. It is a problem, she has told me that she can't stop unless she replaces her addiction with another one, preferably sex. However, a couple weeks ago she did E two days in a row, ( Read more... ) -
Stories of immigration for inspiration?
So, I spent almost all of the past 24 hours at Emily's. It was a very chill night, just of people hanging out and whatnot. We ended up winding down around 5 am, and I got to have a really nice night/morning/day/night with my most recent ex. It was really nice. I got to reflect and really start to take steps towards being the person I want to be. ( Read more... ) -
Noninvited
Its hard not to be pissed off when you were not invited. That's the position I'm in right now: pissed. I wonder why didn't I get invited, and then come all the questions in an attempt to find an answer, which doesn't help with the frustration. Am I that bad? Maybe its not the best thing to do, but its where my mind goes, and my first solution is ( Read more... ) -
Casual sex vs. Fuck buddies?
So, upon being newly single, I'm finding that one of the things that I really miss about my most recent ex is the sex. It was AMAZING, and, yes, I bitched and moaned when I was in the relationship, because he was on the bigger side of the spectrum, and it did hurt after, but it was really good sex. Finally a guy who listened! Also, I was able to be ( Read more... ) -
Making History
So, I got a job at Forever 21, which should be a good thing; however, I am not so sure. Yes, I love the store, which girl doesn't? But, I am afraid I'm gonna spend all of my money on clothes there, and I think that the pressure of dressing up and looking fucking fantastic everyday is just too much! I've been finding myself going through all of my ( Read more... ) -
unhappiness
For some reason, I am not happy. Stefan was driving me home, and I don't know. I just wasn't happy. I don't think it was me being bratty or sad about him dropping me off and him going back to Irvine either. I really don't think that was it. I was just thinking about it, and I'm not happy. I used to be such a happy. smiley, bright person, and now I' ( Read more... ) -
the painless pain
Again, I am, here, at Stefan's. I can't sleep. Well, I could earlier, but now I can't. I feel pain from sex, which I don't have many memories of ever experiencing before. It hurts and stings and burns and I am so paranoid I just want to get every STD test I can get right now, right this second. However, I doubt that Irvine has a 24-hour anything, ( Read more... ) -
Stefan's
So.. here I am.. at Stefan's apartment.. none of his roommates appear to be home. The one roommate, Mike, that he shares a room with.. well its his 21st bday today (well actually yesterday) so he is now in Vegas.. So, conveniently, we have the room and what seems like the whole apartment to ourselves. For some reason, Stefan is very very quick to ( Read more... ) -
yet another productive day
Yes, it has been yet another productive day, and by yes, i mean no. Work was moderately annoying. I got there at 3.. there were no kids.. i came back at 4 because they told me to. I bribed the kids into playing the silent game so that they would plow through their lessons so that I could leave early. I napped after 10 minutes of the view, and I ( Read more... )