Last day of the decade. Epic failure on our part, looking back at all that's happened, no?

I barely slept again. Two in the afternoon and I'm hiding under my blanket in the dark.  Asking myself "Can I just hide here until the new year arrives?" =/ Sooo, I threw myself out of bed, took a long shower, and went back to practicing a couple songs. Now I' ( Read more... )

The last few days have been really rough for me. I've been so overwhelmed with anxiety and despair. Chris and I have hardly talked, and when we do it's just been a couple really bad arguments. He's the one that keeps bringing up, "Well if that's the case, you might as well file for divorce". Great. So that's where I'm at at this point, having to ( Read more... )

Ahhhh what a long night!! I have such a knarley headache because I don't have glasses. >.> Hopefully within this month, I can get examined and buy some new ones. (: I just got the internet functioning again, thank goooodness, so now I can be up all night with something to actually do. Yay! Considering I still don't ever have cable. Lol I'm having ( Read more... )

" Ohh give me what I need, Make me feel like it's all worth it! Show me how to breathe, I feel like I'm SUFFOCATING!"

Ahhhh writing writing, being crafty. Ohhh How I adore having the time to draw, paint, play guitar, sing, anyyything I want.
It's making me  soo jolly. Haha. Art and Music are such powerful outlets, and I'm so thankful to be able to ( Read more... )

This is the first night alone since I've been in Georgia for 3 weeks, that I feel this anxious. I feel like my heart is slowly breaking, and I'm facing the reality of losing the love of my life. Even with the bluntest communication, I feel like he is almost blind to the true reality of the situation. He doesn't get he's crushing me. I just want to ( Read more... )

"Everything will be wonderful someday..."         

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Insufferable Insomnia. I've had days this week where I simply step out onto my balcony or gaze out the window, awaiting the sunrise. 7, 8, 9 in the morning before I can manage to silence my thoughts and get my body to rest ( Read more... )

This squishy really, truly adores her best friend, in every aspect. <3<3 I luuuuh you girl, oh sooo much.(:

I meant to post this the other day. Man's search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl is achingly beautiful. It's humbling and thought provoking, and I recommend it to anyone who is interested in psychology or loves reading.
( Man's Search for Meaning... )

Uncertainty slowly crept over me, filling my nerves with a bad dose of anxiety.

My eyes threatened to betray me, as I fought to suppress the disappointment and concern that surely was showing on my face. There had to be another ending to this night. This couldn’t be it. I refuse to believe in one abrupt motion,

It could all be taken away. I ( Read more... )