I want to write. I want to take a beautiful picture. I want to find and create beauty in all aspects. 
And I cant. I haven't written in here for so long. Or in my written journal. And i Really MISS it.
I've decided that i'm going to make myself get back into the habit...

I've been rather calm mentaly. Things are still. And i'm kind of scared..
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Hellooo My loves... Okay so updates,since it's definetely been a while..:

iM looking for a new job...BLAHHH!
My apartment is doing fine, I got all my things from Ga back, and it's finally furnished!WOOT!
Chris and I Got a little kitten a couple weeks ago, and we dubbed her Ms. Sophia Alexi[Sophie] and she's already bigger and the most mischevious,dog ( Read more... )

LoTs AnD LoTs of FECAL. :P :) That's about it. I'm just waitin for my baby  to come pick me up. TiMe is The EnEmY. Yepp.. So quickly..Things are going alright i suppose. Still lookin for a job. Chris is the greatest. I missed the hell outta daytona...I caught up on sleep this morning finally after almost none. :) And I promiseee I'll do a better ( Read more... )

Goodbyes are so fucking hard. No Goodbyes.. It took everything in me not to bawl like a little girl as he held me. To look in his eyes,in his embrace, knowing It wont happen again for a long time...hurts.:( I miss him already. Im getting on the greyhound bus tomorrow morning,going back to georgia finally. Leaving my friends and certain very loved ( Read more... )

So...here I thought, hey, things will be alright. all of it. I think im going to break my phone,because one bad phone call after another keeps comin. After hysterically crying and not being able to breathe.(Its been a long time since my last panic attack)... I curled up outside,smoked, and let the tears pour out,dazed, gazing off into the sunlit ( Read more... )

QUESTIONAIRE!!!!

01. Who are you?
02. Are we friends?
03. When and how did we meet?
04. What am I to you?
05. Would you date me?
06. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
07. Describe me in one word.
08. What was your first impression of me?
09. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything ( Read more... )

...Nights are so much worse for me. I want to cry.so fucking bad. im screaming. crying on the inside,but it wont come out.none of it. unfortunately the night is only beginning for me.:(...

Bllllahhhhhhh... That's it. Just blahhh. I've wanted to cry all night, and I can't help it. Cry for all the things I am forcing myself to not think about. But not thinking about it all, doesn't make it disappear. I wish it did. I keep tryin to push it back, push it the fuck away. But now,soon, when I am alone again..it will all be worse. I'm a ( Read more... )

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