Im s0o fucked....:(

[ominoustears]

The wholeeee widest of world came crashing down the night before last.I dont know how,but some fuckin how my dad saw one of the cuts on my thigh.He was like "thats new".I tried to get up and go to my room,and he grabbed my arm and said if I moved from the seat he'd call the hospital right then.HE kept talkin for hours and wut not and my mami sat at

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[ominoustears]

<3 Thank you babe...It is hard to.I dont know how he expects me to run to him everytime I pick my razor up and want to cut.:( I did tell him it wasnt his fault but he didnt care.I kno0wo0 that being in a hospital might be the only way for me to get better,and it might help.:( Im just scared. But at the same time...Id be around people that are like me and going thru the same thing...:( I dunnuh. Annd that sucks u lost your fav. razor.I couldnt give him mine.I gave ihm all the other ones though...HE found alll my cuts.It wasnt just 1.It was 20 cuts and Die strong underneath them.:( :( to0 many. I told you I got worse.:( I luv wut your friend said to u.:) Its budimous.<3 *huggle*

[ominoustears]

I know its the best thing,i just dont want to admit it to myself.:( Im just scurred...:( I'll try my hardest not to cut,but perhaps in the end I might end up in the hospital...?:( I lubber y0ou t0owo0..<3

[supa_steph]

::biggest sigh ever::..i can see why your daddy would feel as though its his fault my love..parents always take the blame for things their kids do..but its not his fault and its not your fault either..things have gotten so crazy..maybe you sho0d try to call him..or at least sum1 wenever you have the urge..i kno it wont make the urge go away, but maybe itll help you feel better..i love you so much angie..youre so beautiful..maybe a hospital is the only way you can get better..you sed it yourslef that they cant jus expect you to stop..so maybe you need to go to a hospital to bet help and be w/ ppl who are going thru the same as you..sometimes you hafta do things you dont wanna do in order to get better..i kno you want to get better..every1 wants you to get better...

[ominoustears]

*sighs* *wipes away tear* :'( I know0owo0..I love you soo much steph!Im gunna missh you with my whole widest of heartttt!:( <3 I dunnuh wut ima do without my bestest fwiend.*sighs again* I know its no ones fault Im s0o fucked up n stuffers.:( I dunnuh,Im just scared.ya know? Perhaps if i can make it till x-mas.Afterwards I can go to the hospital for 24hrs like carolyn said...and see wut happens.:( I know everyone wants me to get better..I want to.:( Im tired of feeling like this and having to hide all my cuts and scars.:( Its a big poohead! <3 *huggle*

[lalena31]

sorry i havent commented in awhile babe, ill do better, I promise!

[johns_a_urnal]

hang in there angie...