i dont regret alot in my past.....everything has brought me here, but theres a couple things i wish i could take back.

ya know its funny i actually thought god liked me for a minute........come to find out just his sick fucking sense of humor to make my dream come true then take it all away,

why the fuck should i be happy.....right

im sure i deserved this....but it still hurts....more than words can say

i cant do this i cant accept this.....i love you too much...it cant be over, its not fucking fair...ive tried so fucking hard to clean my shit up and be a better person i graduated, i got a job, im stopping doing the stupid shit like drugs because u make me happier than any drug ever could and i told you i would give it all up in a heart beat ( Read more... )

ok now for me to update this shit must be serious and it is to all THE MOTHERFUCKIN DICKLESS SONS OF BITCHES AT NORTH WEST WHO THINK THEY HAVE TO FUCKIN TALK SHIT ABOUT ME AND TRY AND FUCK UP MY RELATION WITH THE GIRL I LOVE YOU NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP IM ABOUT TO GO TO NORTHWEST AND CURB YOU MOTHERFUCKER AND IM DEAD ASS SERIOUS YOU ( Read more... )

it been a real long time since ive written in here but im going to cause ive been happy lately which is really out of the norm for me but theres this really cool really pretty girl and we get along perfectly cause she is like the female version of me which is so kick ass but shes like missing the parts of me i dont like ( Read more... )

im tired of fighting, tired of trying
all this pain all this lying
i was born to a world where i do not belong
ive been living this lie for far too long
ive tried many things to numb the pain
but they only cause more, to the ones i love
im tired of letting them down, im tired of failing
when can i leave God

IM SO TIRED

its been a hell of a long time since i've written in this thing, and im not gonna do a complete recap of everything but i will say that there have been some ruff spots recently ( Read more... )

all i want to do in this entry is appologize to lauren ( Read more... )

ok im sorry im such a fuckin failure at life and im ruining everyone else's life in the process im sorry OK !!!! i dont know what the fuck else i can do i try my best to be a good boyfriend because i love lauren more than anything else in this world but no matter what i do or what i say people have the need to talk behind my fuckin ( Read more... )

these fuckers at school are really starting to piss me off with this pda shit get a fuckin life my god ( Read more... )