i have a new journal

the username is "aporianonymous"

LOL

add me yo

so i haven't posted on this in a while, huh.

when i got put on anti-depressants for the first time, over two years ago now, i stopped taking them after about three weeks. something like that. i never went back to the doctor. i got out of the really dangerous and destructive place i was in, sure. but the doctor i'm seeing now suggests that by ending my course of medication early i might have ( Read more... )

i'm drunk, so i'm going to be honest.

i went to the doctor about three weeks ago. was diagnosed with depression again, put on anti-depressants.

tell whoever you want. people should probably know, but i can't tell people because i can't deal with it.

there you go. sorry if i'm a prick.

sometimes it feels like everything has gone to shit. and sometimes you feel like you might be climbing out of this hell you somehow found yourself mired in; but every fucking time something manages to conspire to kick you right the fuck back down.

goddamnit.

i don't know what to tell you.

i have a date with a girl on thursday.

given that it's now 2008, i feel somehow required to ruminate a little bit. try and reduce the past year to a comfortable paragraph, maybe tame the new one with a few vague resolutions, some hopes or fears, impending live music experiences. whatever ( Read more... )

What was the last concert you attended ( Read more... )

i'm reading this book by a guy called aaron cometbus. he's published a zine for the last twenty-five years, largely based in the East Bay SF punk community. this book is partially a compendium of some of the stories from that zine, but linked together to form a continuous narrative of when he and a rotating cast of drop outs, drug addicts, thieves ( Read more... )