I got back from tulsa yesterday and brought back my things i had left there. My pa was not feeling to good, so i went to see him. I also needed to get away from this town for a little bit. to many stressors at one time i couldn't handle it all. but i'm back and can't wait to get back to working! trying to be sarcastic. but it was probably obvious ( Read more... )

no. i still wake up with pains in my stomach. i can't go to the doctor because i don't have any insurance. i woke up at six forty and went and just sat in the bathroom floor. dry heaving. i still feel like shit especially at five in the morning mike had woke me up not on purpose just the bag of chips kept me from falling back asleep. i tried not to ( Read more... )

i know my friends can tell when i'm like this but i don't know what to do. they could give advice but it probably won't help, my mind greatly out weighs what others say. which isn't to fair. i hear what they say and know it will help but i just can't accept it. the fact that i want things to be going in my favor makes me disregard what others have ( Read more... )

i got sick to my stomach last night at chili's. felt as if i was going to throw up all night and i still feel a little queazy now. she looked really beautiful last night. and i was sick the moment she showed up so i felt like i was a jerk to her for not wanting to throw up. i really don't like the word jealous but for some reason it still affects ( Read more... )

we learned money today and itas really neat. though i feel uncomfortable about some parts because i can't quite get them done but i've never had previous dance experiance. so good time to learn. mike got a little tipsy awhile ago but he is better now and readfing over my shoulder. the fact of that really pisses me off. and now he is rambling and ( Read more... )

Tanner checked the mail yesterday and we got our pretty steep electric bill. so we'll learn from our mistakes. our apartment is kind of messy so guess i'll clean before work today. Went to a party last night at my friends house. i didn't drink but i did partake in a nice blunt. really didn't do any partying just sat and watched a horrible movie. ( Read more... )

i saw charlie and the chocolate factory again lastnight. For free. its good having connections in this small town. i see all my movies for free. i got my chorus book yesterday for cabaret. now learning the songs is going to be tedious. i'm off today and thankfully i don't a rehearsel. i'm constantly busy now that i got my cabaret schedules ( Read more... )

i need to go to work and get my pay. I need to fill my truck with gas and then buy some groceries. try to write some music today. kelli is nervous about read thru tonight. i'm a little nervous about tonight, reason being bob the director is finally see the opening act of cabaret. i can't be nervous about read thru since i have no lines.