Annnd so... Jay and I FINALLY kissed... and FINALLY got together (after a looong year) and honestly... I've never been happier in my life.
He's wonderful... he makes me smile... I don't even know... he brings out the best in me... and it's a very different relationship than anything I've ever had before... first off he lives in OH... which is tough ( Read more... )

So... in about 3 hours I go and pick Jay up from the airport, because he's coming to visit me... for the whole weekend... and is it weird I'm completly... I don't even know.  I've been anticipating this weekend since he told me about it... 3 weeks ago.  I've felt crazy excited... this feeling in my stomach like when you're 8 and your parents just ( Read more... )

She was a beautiful girl
She was wild as the wind
On top of the world
Til she fell in love with him
Everyone told her that he was bad news
A boy goin nowhere ain't no good for you

Cause wild ponies are born to run
Don't you no wild ponies
Don't belong to no one
So baby, run
Run
Run away

The first time he hit her
Was right after church
He said he ( Read more... )

1. Would you date someone who smokes?
Well since I just quit... I think if he smoked... it would be a horrible temptation... since I'm hanging by a thread at the moment... so I'd have to say no...

2. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
uh... no

3. Would you date someone who lived in another state?
I'm a believer if you want it bad enough ( Read more... )

 Circles ( Read more... )

"So close... and still... so far"

I'm so sick of being alone at Christmas.  I guess being alone is better than being unhappy... but I feel like everyone has someone and life is just grand... and ahhhhh.

I have the best friends in the world.  I don't think anyone else in this world has such a strong bond, trust, and reliableness as I do.  And I am ( Read more... )

 
Ten things you want to say to ten different people:
1. I like you.  So much.  But don't know how to tell you, or how to get over it.

2. I'm really over you, thank god.

3. I hate you.  Everytime I see someone who looks like you I get scared, I'm so sick of living in fear.

4. Thank you.  For always being there.  And understanding.  And making sure I ( Read more... )

 why do I always fall for guys that I have absolutly no chance with?  Is it that I'm a closet commitment-phobe... and choose guys that although might be "perfect" for some odd reason or another would never work out?  I'm trying to talk myself out of this one, but it's getting harder everytime we talk.  And it's not one of those lusty, can't wait to ( Read more... )

new plan... this week was awful... one bad day after another... ended with a brusied ego... barricades upon my heart (again)... a faint blush... and my arm in a sling.  But that's ok...

I'm going to solider through this... I'm going to smile... and goddamit I'm going to be happy.

Spending the week at the beach... peaceful... calming... and full of ( Read more... )

I couldn't even make this stuff up...

So there's this guy, he's French, from Canada and he's genuienly a nice guy.  My dad even wanted me to marry him to get his green card lol.  He'e spending the week here... and we took him out to eat Weds night at Olive Garden.  After he got tanked at my dad's.  Well he got sick... really sick on the sidewalk ( Read more... )