coming to terms with losing my grandfather is, as everyone knows, going to be really hard.  hell, i'm almost twenty four  & i'm still not really over the fact that my parents got divorced four years ago.  i'm pretty bad at accepting change in my life all together, but i'm slowly getting better.  i think the fact that i rarely see people helps &  ( Read more... )

i have got to find my place in this world.

i'm all kinds of ready for the next "chapter" in my life.
this one sucks.

my nana even admitted today that she misses tiny - & she hates dogs.

this house seems more hollow with every passing day.

i was reading over old entries today - entries of my own, entries belonging to friends, & entries in livejournals that were made by people i've never even met.  anyway.  i remembered a lot of things i had forgotten - like why everyone starting saying "your mom drives a focus"... i miss that guy - the guy who i really used to have high hopes for in ( Read more... )

I'm not going to lie to myself anymore - I still miss you. This is harder than I ever thought it could be. I wish that I didn't see your face everywhere I went, & I wish that I didn't think of you every hour of every day. I wish I could be strong enough to recognize that I was never what you wanted & thus you moved on so quickly. I could never ( Read more... )

every day, the world changes.  whether for good or not for better, it won't be the same as when you laid down  your head ( Read more... )

i wish i had a big ol' bottle of rum right now.
but it's cool, i'm pretty happy otherwise.

i guess that day in march wasn't the lifesaver i thought it was ( Read more... )

its two thirty in the morning & im up, at will's apartment, waiting for him to get off work so i'm not sitting here chilling with sebastian by myself. i already walked around rushton park like three times by myself, & i'd walk down to the one next to the donnelly house but it's dark & cold & i dont feel like it.

so, shit, anyway. monday was my ( Read more... )

i've never been this sad before. I wish I could just make things better. Your friends are the people who should be there for you when you're upset. I need that.