still stuck. a big part of my life needs to be satisfied. i just need to figure out what that part is.

i drive to and from work or even just around town on a very daily basis and just look at all the houses i pass by in jealousy. i wonder what life is like in each one. who everyone is. i like to look at the windows in the office buildings and wonder if they people working there are happy with what they are doing. i have never really been one to care ( Read more... )

for the past few week i have been haunted by what seems to be nostalgia if that even makes sense. i was looking at pictures from a few years back and i just get bummed out by how we went for you family with the dog and the white picket fence to living in a shitty rodent infested apartment in downtown lowell. i have noticed that when i visit my moms ( Read more... )

growth is the key to survival and no where in survival of the fittest does it say...fight, flight, or act like a complete cunt

spinning

i have about 15 minutes until i have to leave for work for the second time.

lately i have been finding vampires extremely interesting and i have had some bizzare fascination with black metal.

i am looking forward to some relaxation time and a new tattoo.

jaw breaker

so this was the most bizzare weekend. early early this morning i found out that a good friend of mine from my jiu-jitsu classes died of a heart attack. not only did this hit the school hard but it made me think how could someone like that just go. he was a great guy, super nice, very encouraging and complimentary. we are all gonna miss him a lot. ( Read more... )

i can remember before i was even in school, waking up at 6 in the morning and being outside at 7. i can remember sitting on the patio and looking at the dew and the ground and then running to climb on the burning bush, which back then seemed like a tree. i remember when riding my bike around the block was a big deal and my biggest concern of the ( Read more... )

i am soooooooooooooooo sick of cars and money.

i want an easy button.