life. what can i say. besides it sucks. i never write in here anymore. i kind of forgot. lets see. single. again. which is no suprise but who cares. besides me.

its been a month. holy wow. not much has been going on. andy and i are ok. not wonderful but what are you gonna do? i really have nothing at all to write about. how sad is that.

back with andy. i dont know why. or how. it just happened. im nervous. afraid hes going to hurt me again. i hope not. i hope i didnt make a mistake with this.

all of this has got me wondering if its ever going to be possible to be happy.

ahh. i need to get over him. right now.

andys gone. done. over. im not good enough. too good to be true. sure as fucking hell was.

i havent written in forever huh? well. andy and i are better. we're getting a lot closer. its amazing. his friends so much fun. and they get along well with mine. so everything feels so perfect. but i wont get my hopes up. i know how this works.i will update more often.

fighting with andy. upset. help me.

=) guess who is dating the beautiful andy.

talked to andy again. hung out all weekend so i haven't had much time to update. things are getting better with us. closer. i like it. it makes me nervous to get close to people again. all things considered. but i will try and i will keep this updated with things that happen.