In approximately 15 minutes all hell will break loose. And it's partly my fault. Well, not really. It's just the fact that I can't lie to people I care about that is to blame ( Read more... )

So I'm about to do something I never thought I would do. It's nervewracking and exciting, and in some scenarios it could end with me dead.

What the fuck has happened that I've stooped to this level?

So I've always wanted to write things that are profound and deep, and things that just make you go "hmm...that's interesting". But I never have ( Read more... )

Life has been generally good lately. Dealing with everything is definately hard, but basically I'm really well ( Read more... )

I guess I should also say that every day I feel like I'm about to fall apart. But I hide it, because I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I think I'm acting happier than I usually do, just so nobody can ask me anything. Saturday was the first day that I actually grieved "for my loss". It scared me. I didn't think it would take that long for ( Read more... )

Lately everything has been weird. On Saturday I got sent home from work because I had a breakdown, and I couldn't stop shaking or crying. I couldn't stop feeling that way for the rest of the day, and I don't want to go back to that ever again, but I know I will ( Read more... )

Dear Mom ( Read more... )

This past week has by far been the strangest for me. Thank you to all who have expressed their sorrow to me. You will never know how much it is appreciated ( Read more... )

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Because I have little contact with actual people, I will post this on LiveJournal, and try to call others. But yeah.

My mother passed away this morning. I knew this day was coming, but I had no idea it would be so soon.

Lisa: Please call me soon. I called you this morning but all I got was the machine.