to quote some shitty music from a shitty genre that I don't even like...

I'm headed for the big d, and don't mean dallas.

I would forget you before I am over you.

I have a problem with detaching people from roles sometimes. I get hot and bothered for a character in a film, or show and then decide that I like that actor. I suppose, to a degree, this makes sense. Something in the actor had to help him choose that role, or identify with it in a way to portray the character. On the other hand, sometimes it ( Read more... )

I feel like work is never ending. I keep staying late at work, and working off the clock to get things done, and I'm still not hitting the mark. Back to school is so awful in my departments. I know no one particularly cares about work rants, I just feel so exhausted. I come home late, go to bed, wake up as I have to get ready, and then do it ( Read more... )

So a couple of weeks ago my ma asked me who the hell Robert Cross was because he tried adding her on Facebook and I'm friends with him. I had to explain that he's my exboyfriend, the one who lived down the street and had that weird peach fuzz mustache. It made me laugh because when I dated Bobby he was super into basketball and rap music. I mean ( Read more... )

I used to update here pretty regularly. It felt like every week there was some tremendous event happening, some huge revelation, or some insane loop circling in my head that I had to communicate. I just don't feel that way anymore. It could be that my brain isn't looping as much anymore. It could be that I'm making healthier life choices, or ( Read more... )

sometimes things happen that just make you rethink everything. I don't know if I've made the right choices. I just know I want to be there to help you through this, but I can't. I can't be there. I don't feel like I'm here. I don't know where I am. I just want it all to stop. I want to know everything is right. I want to know that I'm not ( Read more... )

sometimes my shrink tells me to do things that I really don't want to do. getting better is really hard. he did remind me that I pay him to talk to, and that he doesn't have contrived opinions of me because he is fulfilling a business agreement. He is not my friend, and that sometimes talking to my friends/people I have relationships with about ( Read more... )

( this is about poop )

duality. lots and lots of it. I can't figure out if I want to be a stable person who makes safe choices, or someone who does what they want when they want, and constantly seeks thrills and excitement. I don't think I can balance the two, and it drives me more nuts than when I felt like I was actually nuts ( Read more... )