it's really hard to find anything good about yourself when the ones you love can only cast judgment on you ( Read more... )

Today was good. I was sick still so I went to my friend's house to just chill out for a bit. She and I were best friends in high school. She was my counterbalance and for a while, we did great together. But, as I always seem to do, I wandered off in search of different stimuli. She found a boyfriend so it wasn't like I was missed. Though, at ( Read more... )

I haven't written here for a long time. Part of it is due to that damn Myspace and how addictive it is. The other part is due to the drama and craziness that ensued in my life. Over a year ago, on a daily basis, I had bullshit and crap coming out of every part of my life. It wasn't until now, that I realize that you are what you surround ( Read more... )

fear. within the last week my life has been changed, turned upside down. the calmness, the blandness that i once complained of is gone. in its place thrives this feeling that i cannot explain. suddenly the darkness poses new threats. new reasons to catch my breath as i run from my car to the door. new confusion as i struggle to unlock my door ( Read more... )

*shakes her head*

seriously.
it can stop now.

This is a letter I wrote, but never sent. One that possibly should have been sent, but at the time I was trying not to deal with the emotions I felt. But, I decided to post it here. Might as well, I'm not feeling like this anymore. But it makes for good reading. Enjoy ( Read more... )

well.. what can I say? I have finally perfected the art of making an ass of myself. and just to preface this... it is really disgusting to walk around all day with the smell of puke permeating the air ( Read more... )

too much fucking drama ( Read more... )

ok so i have done it again ( Read more... )

what are you so afraid of

What if I helped you soar when your wings were broken?
What if I guided you when your dreams were lost?
What if I made you smile when you just wanted to cry?
What if I gave you love when you felt all alone?
I can be your guardian angel, a true friend.
You just have to trust me.