And you will never know ( Read more... )

What an evening... it pretty much started off with (lil) Ashley signing off on me because I cursed/cussed. My bad, it's all around me. She really doesn't like me doing it though. *Sigh* Sometimes I feel like when I am face to face with her, I'm gonna hafta change a lot about me. I suppose I understand the not cursing thing though, being as it isn't ( Read more... )

I have a car payment of $225 I need to pay by April 7th. My paycheck was only $88 this time around. I get my Busch weekend job in the first week of April. I am not worried about May's payment. I will have that easily. I'll be pulling 16 hours on the weekends @ 6.45 per hour and 15 hours at Golden Corral during the week at 6.00 per hour. That will ( Read more... )

You know, I'm at the point in my life where I just do not know where I am going. I have no direction, no goals, no dreams. Once upon a time I had them. I am just here, basically. I go to college but I do not do my best. I go to work but it is a daily battle. I go to church and I cry because I feel like I just can't hack it. What kind of life is ( Read more... )

For one, I was one of the "slow" people, finding out about the war the day after it had begun. I was like "so it has begun?" Sure has. Duh ( Read more... )

My mom is being a lunatic right now. She completely goes off the handle cause I ate some of her precious cheese. Well excuse me. And screw you mother. She is all cursing me out and saying stuff like "you are gonna start paying room and board and you can sell your car and then you won't have a way to school so you can drop out".... what the heck??? ( Read more... )

It is 3 a.m. I got back from Jesse's round 12:30. I did not drink. And behold, I cannot sleep! I sleep well when I drink. So I decided, the clock is ticking... I have five hours tops now to sleep... I need help. So I took some Nyquil. If you read that one "Nyquil IM convo" for not too long back, you'd know how funny it is... well, kinda. Using ( Read more... )

What an... interesting day. First of all, to my surprise I wasn't over being drunk-ish this morning. It hit me in History class. I got tipsy and boopsy. I was like what is going on. I ask my classmate, she explained. So you can be tipsy all over again the next morning... ya might not realize it right when ya wake up though ( Read more... )

I take medication for a mood/personality disorder. It isn't anything as serious as multiple personalities or skitzo... nah, but it requires medication. The past three days I have not taken them consistently and my anger has emerged again. It sucks so much ( Read more... )

I went to VA Beach tonight with Nicole, Jeanne, and Mike. We went to "Steppin' Out"... for swingdancing. I didn't think I was gonna dance but I did! It was a lot of fun. I think I'll go again in the near future.

Man I am SO tired. I was hoping older Ashley would be online... oh well. I guess I will just go to bed.