i decided today, thinking about always hooking up with someone from my past, and decided i really need to consintrate on moving on. life changes, and i really dont want to be left behind. i need to finish school, and then establish myself as an independent because that has always been my goal. to prove that i am not weak to fall, and to not be ( Read more... )

i cant handle what i do sometimes. i keep doing things that dont make sense, and then i always feel like shit afterward. like i still have a low self esteem, but try to hide it by acting sure of everything that i do, but not even knowing how to act. i make my self sick. if i was someone else and watching what i do i would not like me. that is ( Read more... )

i wish i could stay motivated for all that i need to do. i feel like i am drowning, and i dont know which way is up. i need to get on some medication to help me out. speed. anyway. i just need to stay focused. focus. i need to get out and let off some steem. maybe go dancing, or snowboarding. something to get my mind clear. and its not like i am ( Read more... )

why do people demand your free time, like you owe it to them to spend time with them. i have very little free time and wish to do with it what i please. not to please anyone else.