passed out at like 8 p.m. last night. fuck saturday nights. who needs em when you have stomach sickness and bed? hahaha. anyway, im watching the news and it's making me want to stab myself. chaaaaanging the channellllll. finding out slowly that my life is NOT the most horrible thing ever. I love my friends, im glad they can be there for me when i ( Read more... )

i miss LJ. im bout to use this shit all the time now. i like being able to vent and use more than 140 characters. right? haha. i feel great today. let's keep it that way. I am working on getting my job back at the Q. need that for sure. If that doesn't work out i'm gonna be annoyed. so yeah, fo sho. just chillin. i had something to say but i forget ( Read more... )

Yeeeeah and i haven't updated this thing in a hot second. time to throw some shit out there. I'm really happy that i decided to come home from Disney on Ice. it was so much bullshit. i made 200 dollars and i worked 60 hours. those assholes. slave wage dicks. actually, it wasnt even hourly at all, all commission. i suggest no one ever do that job. ( Read more... )

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Got a job offer that I can't take because my car is broken. It's for pizza delivery. I have to say no because my car isn't working? that sucks so much. I can't even begin to explain how stupid this is. Also, I can't go back to school until I get a job. That's the worst news ever. How did I get to this low of a point in my life? I can't go to school ( Read more... )

There is nothing positive about the position i'm in right now. Everything seems to be a waste of my time. I can't keep a job for the life of me and I am always out of money. Scratch that, i have 1 dollar. Oh joy. Now I just have to remember not to spend it all in one place. What the hell am I going to do now? All I do is fill up space in my parents ( Read more... )

I've finally realized that my friends aren't what they used to be. They used to care about every little thing and now it seems like things are fading. It isn't something I am upset about or anything, I just know now that they don't see me the same way they used to. That's fine though because maybe it is time to move on. Certain things are even ( Read more... )

techfest was so sweet this weekend. Too bad I got pulled over on the way, i hadn't even left my area, i was at 13 and hayes area. Fuck fraser cops, especialle officer poole and his fuckin motorcycle. he is a big fucking tool. They also had a dog search my car and it's alllll scratched to hell plus the hole in my leather seats. I hate those ( Read more... )

so today i am feeling slightly empty. Not sure why but it's ok. Lately I've been getting myself outside more and have found it very pleasant. I like being out in the sun, among other things. I feel so secretive sometimes with it. Will I ever be healed enough to do something about it? I can only wait and see. Hopefully I can get up the courage to do ( Read more... )

i can't trust my family anymore. that's good to know ( Read more... )