" I've been alone all along"

[onestarrynight]

Well I've been doing some thinking to compensate for the last couple days (weeks,months, years). For better or worse I've started growing up in, the world is kinda forcing me to. I may be trying act 14 for the rest of my life cause I think it's what I deserve or see my self as being but damn if being older hasn't kind of demanded maturity of me. I'

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[xyphoidmax]

Hmmm...I know exactly how you feel, Becca. There really isn't any reason to "grow up." You will grow old, but there's no reason to completely grow up. You know what I mean? I find myself exhibitting some of the same behaviors that I had back when I was 14, ie., not doing homework, considering tattoos and piercings (although, I've always wanted them...So...Hmmm...), disregarding other's feelings and so on. But, that doesn't make you bad person or a bad adult. But, think of it like this, you don't officially become an adult until you're 30. Legally, you become one when you're 18, but 30 I think is a good age to have all your shit together and finally say, "Yeah, I'm ready to be a real adult." And as for relationships...Well, I've done absolutely nothing with anybody...Ever. Pretty lame and pathetic for someone my age...Or at least I think so. I must have pissed Aphrodite off something awful to deserve such shitty luck in relationships ans such. Damn it. But, either way, don't feel so pressured to grow up and be responsible yet...You

[onestarrynight]

well then maybe we should go get tattos and peircings together

[xyphoidmax]

Yeah, it'll be good times.

[happysmapdi]

Just mellow out and wait for college. Cause in college none of that shit matters and all the bs that you overthink in high school just goes away with a new environment(at least it did for me). Or just smoke a bowl it'll make you stop thinkin all together.

[onestarrynight]

that's good advice but I guess I wanna know who I am when I get to college, then again maybe that's what college is for.