I am so fucking burned out. My job is ruining my life, it’s hard to find anything new that’s not what I’m already doing and that also pays enough. I’ve been soooooo depressed looking for a new job has been very difficult. But I’m trying. My shitty roommates certainly don’t help making life any easier. They’re lazy and dirty and as many times as I ( Read more... )

Dealing with more loss this past year than I have in a long time. Covid, oddly enough, had nothing do with it. I know lots of people have suffered losses over the past year or so due to Covid, and sometimes that makes me feel like the ones I’ve experienced aren’t as impactful or maybe like I shouldn’t be complaining. I don’t know. I’ve had a few ( Read more... )

I just have to say: I fucking hate tiktok so fucking much, I want the servers to go down permanently for it. It’s so annoying. I’m very grateful that they won’t allow vid sharing anymore unless you have the app, so now I don’t feel obligated to watch stupid videos my roommate sends to me all day. Such a relief! Now if I could just get her to stop ( Read more... )

I got a text from Celeste yesterday telling me that Lomax wasn’t doing well. He had stopped eating and drinking. He’s 20, so health issues are to be expected. He’s been on thyroid and high blood pressure medication for a few months, and has been in renal failure for a while too. Which is a pretty common thing for old cats.

But I called mom after ( Read more... )

I sometimes feel like I’m just spinning my wheels in deep mud or snow. Just not getting any traction to move forward. I think it’s just my anxiety and this really annoying self sabotaging thing that I do when I’m scared of change.

I’m still looking for a new job, and as I’m doing these searches I find myself circling back to customer service jobs, ( Read more... )

I spent a lot of time today in after call and on unscheduled break to look through Indeed for jobs and also trying to mitigate my stress by scrolling through Twitter and instagram.

I found some alright part time jobs that could maybe be a potential if I can reduce my hours at my current shitty job. So I put them on my list, I applied to one that ( Read more... )

Oh man, what next? I’m so tired and burned out with my job. And yes, I’m looking for a new one but pickings are kind of slim. It’s a lot of part time stuff or work that pays too little or it’s more customer service stuff or all of the above.

Last Monday I had to leave work early, it wasn’t even that bad but I just can’t stand talking to people ( Read more... )

What else is there to say? I’m exhausted. Work is always the worst, I hate it. It’s so draining. I barely have any energy to do normal things. 3 days off never seems like enough. I’m glad that I have 15 days off coming up - Felix is coming to visit. I’m looking forward to him coming, but I’m very nervous about it.

I think it’ll be okay since he’s ( Read more... )

I work 10-14 hour shifts doing customer service for a fucking power company. I absolutely want to explode with anger and frustration when I see my roommate doing absolutely 0 to keep the house clean when she works 2 days and has 10 days off between shifts. Why the fuck can you not do the motherfucking dishes?! All she does is smoke weed and watches ( Read more... )

Ugh the sound of awful country music blasting from the living room makes me feel like I’m listening to the sound of sand in my teeth. I hate it.