Loss ramblings

[xyphoidmax]

Dealing with more loss this past year than I have in a long time. Covid, oddly enough, had nothing do with it. I know lots of people have suffered losses over the past year or so due to Covid, and sometimes that makes me feel like the ones I’ve experienced aren’t as impactful or maybe like I shouldn’t be complaining. I don’t know. I’ve had a few

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[cheeksthellama]

I'm still feeling a lot of grief and just horrible guilt about August. I had Facebook chatted with her a bit and it sounded like she was feeling kind of isolated and lacking IRL community. There's the part of me that knows you can't make decisions for other people - they gotta do what they gotta do - but one of the things I'd said to August was that she's gotta come visit in Portland. When I was coming out to visit my parents I was thinking about how I should see if she would have time to get together so I could be like, hey come out to Baltimore for a week! It's queer and hella gritty and cheap and we live down the street from an anarchist employee-owned bookstore. But I didn't message her because I was just sort of tired and didn't feel like coordinating with the car and my mom getting testy

[xyphoidmax]

Yeah, I can definitely relate! I feel bad and guilty I didn’t reach out to her sooner. I wish I had known she was going through such a rough spot, and maybe having another trans person who she already knew may have been helpful to her. Maybe not. But I won’t ever know now. But I don’t blame you for not wanting to deal with your mom, that’s a whole other beast to tackle on its own