april is the cruelest month in that i am terribly allergic to most of it. i have been waking up very early lately, thanks to the ineffectiveness of my blinds. the up side is that i have been working out some mornings but the down side is that i am cranky and tired most of the time. graduation looms and i want to be cheerful but it's very difficult ( Read more... )

i'm getting better at this... intense emotions no longer last only a minute or even only an hour... i'm up to a whole day. unfortunately it's been mostly bad ones of late, but it's nice to feel like i actually exist for once.

my reflection on high school, written sophomore year of college. one of the better poems from that year and one of the most honest i have ever written.

( i just found this )

i stole this from erika's myspace, but i never use myspace so i'm putting it here.

( one more bottle for this happy hour hero )

my apartment is making scary noises and for a while i couldn't decide whom to call, then didn't call anyone. it's finals and i'm splitting myself every which way but there's one big split and i don't really know what to make of it. i know which way i want to go but it's the harder one and since everything else i love is hard i kind of wanted this ( Read more... )

( if we sleep together will it make it any better? )

pop quiz ( Read more... )

i can't get enough of Orenda Fink's solo album, which has been a periodical obsession of mine ever since it came out. i believe Maria Taylor's was the better reviewed of the Azure Ray side projects, but this lady can make you feel both utterly sensuous and completely innocent without even raising her voice ( Read more... )

i've neglected both this journal and the corporeal one so long that i'm a bit embarrassed to start up again. i've spent the better part of the last three weeks hostessing at la dolce vita on murray hill. the boss likes to yell and make irrational demands, but everyone else is lovely. i'm still hoping for a library job, and will probably have to ( Read more... )

( apartment photos )