get through things one day at a time.

its clear i'll just sit here and nothing will happen.

i am home in my own bed with only enough time to change and get to work but i wish i could sleep :\ the floor was a little brutal last night

THE SILENT TREATMENT: DAY 3 ( Read more... )

what do you do when you come to accept that the person you love more than anything in the world could live without you around? :\ i'm seriously considering becoming religious, i feel like i need to pay somehow for what i've done so i can move on and finally be satisfied.

absense in love is like water upon fire; a little quickens, but much extinguishes it.

he will never pressure me to do something i dont want to do or dont feel comfortable doing.

( more positive things )

( reasons i want this to work out )

it sucks when your brain is so complicated that you can't understand simple things. i think i need to train myself to control the urge to see possibilities, both good and bad, in everything. it is so hard to understand that other people don't think the same way that i do, and i dont know how to adjust what i do to make it compatible. how do you ( Read more... )

now i'm leaving to go to work, then sleeping at my friend's house so that between 8 and noon tomorrow, a couple people can come over and install a wall mount for his awesomely large new(ish) television that he's been waiting over a month to install haha. turns out his studs are too far apart. stud finder jokes go!

i dont want to sleep and wake up forgetting things are different now.