Never have i been so embarressed for anything in my life. I completly ruined my moms birthday i even ripped her present that i gave her. The worst part of it is my mom now thinks im a drunk I just am so sorry and I wish i had hung out with keith yesterday instead I cant even remeber getting in the fucking car Maybe its time for me to realize that i ( Read more... )

yeah today apparently jimmy and some of his friends are coming over. which should be fun i suppose but im a little dissapointed that i set things up with him since today is keiths only free day and im not sure when there will be another time when hes free... anyway Im ultra tired stayed up till like 6 this morning and woke up at 11 so now i think ( Read more... )

well yesterday was alright i got to see mikki who i have missed very much and aubrey and molly and last night we went to kaz's which was more then lame cause i was totally bored and starving. but today we woke up ultra late and went in her pool which was so pretty and nice makes me wish i were rich. Anyway overall it was nice and today im planning ( Read more... )

im in the oddest mood these days ive been working a lot last couple of days but i have absoulty no energy to do anything, i never want to eat anything and i dont barely sleep and i havent seen any of my friends in a while espically molly. i dont know things are weird

awww odd how such an awesome day could be followed by such a horrible one. I worked so hard to get exactly what i wanted and now that i have it im just like eh... not that intersted? it pisses me off a lot. went to seafair today that was um semi fun i suppose... thats all i have to say.

Well yesterday was quite eventful and awesome but today im suffering with a massive headache and supposively am going to Seattle YET again to see keith this afternoon. But yes Im trying to figure whether yesterday was a huge mistake or not I mean i did have a really good time? so? um i guess not? im still way not awake.. so yes ill be over in ( Read more... )

so as usual everything worked out and i guess it all kind of came together for me that if what i want is to be independent i have to start out by finshing things that have already been put in front of me. And also Monday is my birthday which im only semi excited about because i dont have any plans at all so im hoping something good will happen. ( Read more... )

I realized today how basically have the summer is gone and im not at all satisfyed with what ive done with it yes i basically got my first ob and have been working really hard and will recieve a fat pay check but that to me really isnt what I want. Last year because i fucked up so royally in the begining of the year next year ill have to work ( Read more... )

eh well ive come to the conclusion that im incredibly sneeky i dont think anyone is more sneeky then me, espically these days ive done so much stuff with out it even being known about and havent gotten in trouble for any see this is why i love summer. Also my throat is alot better but sadly this means i have to go back to work tomorrow but im ( Read more... )

* this entry reflects the confusion and upset i feel*

In a lot of ways i can just say well things are really nice right now so i should just leave it But then days like today happen and i think why cant this be more is there something wrong with me? Im feeling extremly emo ish at the moment and also i have intensly swollen glans that make it so its ( Read more... )