I am so lost right now. I am hurt, confused, frustrated, and tired. I just lost someone who meant the world to me, and now something's wrong with Deb and I dont know what to do. Everyone is shutting me out right now, and I just want to fix everything but it seems like the harder I try, the worst it gets and the more ppl that get hurt. Ahhhh ( Read more... )

I cant sleep...I lay in bed and the thoughts just keep circling in my mind. I wonder why, and what I could have done differently. If this was the way things were meant to be. I cant believe I actually allowed myself to be happy. The walls had actually started to come down, I actually started to let people into my life. I actually started to ( Read more... )

I have been debating on whether or not to update all weekend. I have alot of unstilled emotions right now. I am hurting right now. But a hurt that Ive never felt before. Ive been hurt by family before, but Ive always been able to deal with that, because I know have other ppl like my friends that I could turn to. But when your hurt by your best ( Read more... )

So I had a fabulously bad morning...but then things got better as the day went on....I wrote my history test first thing this morning. I realized it was the first time that I had to get to school for eight oclock in a few months ( Read more... )

To allow yourself to let someone else see you cry is probably one of the hardest things in the world to do. But to be crying, and have someone hold you tight, kiss your forehead and tell you everything is okay is probably the most amazing feeling in the world. A moment in time, when you feel loved back by the person you love more than anything ( Read more... )

I hate this day. It is the worst day of the year... It represents everything I hate in life. Everything I hate about my life. I dont see the point I really dont. This is the day that I sit home and feel sorry for myself. Thats right...I dont care I am being self centered...I have a little ritual I do on this day..and will continue to so ( Read more... )

I think I need a Hug..

I am bored right now, but have a ton of homework that I dont want to do. I want to go out, but I have no car ( Read more... )

I tore off yet another month from my desk calendar this morning. May..grad is soo soon..theres only a month left..thats it..I hate it...I know ill miss it soo much..I dont want this to end, i dont want highschool to be over. Like I hate the school work...and phsyics makes me nautious..but things just will never be the same ( Read more... )

I got into MacMaster today!!! I am soo very excited about that. Its my over all second choice. Thats the school I want to first..but UofT would give me more money therefore UofT is my dad's first choice, which means its my first choice. But ya I got into Mac!! i am sooo excited. I havent heard from UofT but my hopes are up ( Read more... )