ok im sitting here at jakes watchin tv i cleaned up his room nothing to really say hes on the sofa im waiting for steph so i can see her lol later

ok well i started throwing up at about 1am and finished around 5am passed out in bathroom so i did not sleep well i have a couple things to do i started on the tree it look ok there is one strand of color lights that blink so i have to figure that out every one need to put on there own things so my living room is a big mess later i have to stop by ( Read more... )

ok the whole point of a journal is so that u write what ur feeling.... hmm i dont think i should do that cuz i could hurt some peoples feelings...hmm shoot me now... i feel like im gonna puke my head hurts and my brain is telling me something to do that i dont want to do i was happy i was gonna come up here and see my friends but now im fucking ( Read more... )

ok i have figured this out steph posts ALOT its good though i alway know whats going on with her and even better its not hear say hehehe ok but moving on im back in the shit for town LESLIE until x-mas day the only good point is getting to see my friends still waiting to see my boyfriend hmm hows this gonna work im scared im not gonna get the ( Read more... )

umm talked to jason he said shane was sad that i did not stop bye but i never said i dont think i did but i never said that i would stop by on Saturday
i thought shane knew i was with family atleast until mondays night i dont know i tried calling but jay is not home sorry hun im gonna keep trying
I LOVE YOU *KISSES AND BITES*

ok tomorrow i fly in around 5:30pm or 6pm something like that i have no idea but Saturday i have to do this over night bull shit at a hotel in Lansing and then i have the other half of the family thing sunday so then i have FREE TIME AFTER SUNDAY i so happy lol j/k i dont know when im gonna see shane *pouts* but i will call him when i get in to ( Read more... )

ok its almost 5am monday i have yet to sleep i cant im not sleeping at night but the second i get home from school i crash so hmm my dad is starting to notice my getting only a couple of hours of sleep i have a huge headache och but yeah what ever Friday i fly in joy joy some parts are joy some are not but what ever
shane dont forget i love you

I MISS SHANE
THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY!!

wow its really hot in this computer room ahhh burn burn lol 3rd degree burns gezz but any who its hot if i did not get my point across but other then that im ummm miss shane things r going ok i guess made some friends
umm really wishing i could sleep but yeah im ready to crash
later all

i have heard nothing from shane in a couple days and im scared im sick of crying im sick of act like im ok thing will work out as some point I HOPE im gonna flip im tired b/c iam not sleeping much im crying and blasting music all night to keep my mind straight right im not that good at getting things off my mind im miss my only GET A HOLD OF ME ( Read more... )