i'm doing the abc diet, and im s ticking to it, but i feel like i'm eating SO much on my 500 cal days. if i gain weight tonight, im quitting this hsit. im also gonna start exercising some how, yoga i think. maybe some pilates and abs o steel. gotta stay on track when i go away this weekend.

total today

cals: 260
fat: 6g

not GREAT, but better! it's only 9 pm, but i'm too injured to move and eat again.

my dad was in such a good mood this morning. singing in the shower and everything. and then the insurance company called to say i didnt have insurance anymore and he flipped. not at me in particular. i guess more at my mom, they weret fighting..he was just in a nasty mood. because of me. because im too much of a fuckin pussy ass loser to get my ( Read more... )

ok so of course i fucked up again BIGGG TIME. i've probably eaten more in the past few days than i have in my entire life. it's sick. i'm either not eating anything or eating EVERYTHING and not seeing any limit. i make myself sick. it's like when i decide to binge, i have to make up for everything i'm not going to eat when i fast. i just eat ( Read more... )

i fucked up majorly yesterday... i was doing so well. i went to class and even walked extra in the city. i had too much time to waste tho, so after my redbull i went to ABP and got a low fat chicken soup. i looked up the nutritional info while i ate it and it was about 130 calories. i only drank the broth and didn't even finish it so i was still ( Read more... )

i did pretty well today!! i had chicken fajitas from TGIFriday's and a Grande Skinny Latte (only 130 calories). i'm nt sure how many cals the fajitas are but i'm hoping it's under 370. unlikely i suppose. either way, i'm happier with myself for not eating ANYWHERE NEAR AS MUCH as i have been. that would have been my snack yesterday. fucking ( Read more... )

I FOUND MY ADDERALL ( Read more... )

so i decided to get a new LJ...and not friend anyone i know. it's easier to vent when you're not worried about people you know reading it. especially if you need to vent about them. so here i go ( Read more... )

breakfast
pops cereal = 3 pts
bottled water = 0 pts
nutri-grain cereal bars = 3 pts
lunch
WW bread = 1 pt
light mayo = 2 pts
tomatoes = 1 pt
turkey = 3 pts
total = 13 pts 5-10 pts left ( Read more... )

okay i'm starting weight watchers again. i watched that i'm going to fat camp special on MTV and when the fat girl said she wore the same jean size as me, i just couldn't take it anymore. so:
12/11/02
breakfast
frosted flakes w/ milk = 3 pts
bottled water = 0 pts
lunch
dinner2 slices of WW bread = 1 pt ( Read more... )