I'm watching Mannequin on tv... from 1987: http://imdb.com/title/tt0093493/

Something hit me while "Jonathon" was talking to his mannequin that came to life in the closed, empty department store.  There was nothing that could interrupt him, nothing to take him out of the moment.  No, ( Read more... )

Never has life seemed so tragically short.  Never have I felt so gypped.   Even if I do ever get my 'act together'...  I will not have figured out the way I wanted my life to be and possibly even accomplish getting to that place until at least almost 1/2 my life was over (provided I live 'till 80)...

Never have I been so pissed at everything and no ( Read more... )

Insecurity is my adopted middle name.  And it isn't (and never has been) in style.  They say that sex sells... I'm thinking more so that it's confidence.  And this shit I'm feeling... this way I am... no one's buying it.  It reeks of weakness.  And weakness is the disease people must keep away from... lest it be contagious, lest survival is ( Read more... )

I'm so very impressionable by the surrounding world.  More specifically, by the attitudes of others... by the rejection by others (overall in one day... though it's usually my own false perceptions)... by the moisture in the air... by the frequency of clouds...
by the smells I encounter...

I am more comparable to a wad of silly putty than to the ( Read more... )

I suddenly feel I may know what it is like to be an alpha male. Or one of the victims of the 'rage' disease in 28 Days Later. After having a lingering sinus infection, my pulmonary doctor prescribed an aggressive treatment of Prednisone, Tussin with Codeine (cough syrup), allergy medicine, and a nose spray (on top of antibiotics I was still ( Read more... )

Life is... hard. And not just the life that surrounds you, the difficulty of getting somewhere, of making something of yourself. If it just came down to determination and making use of what's around you, I bet there'd be a lot more happy/successful people ( Read more... )

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It's been awhile since I've been encouraged to write. Thanks to the beautiful view from the Freedom Bench in the park in Cliffside Park, and the even more beautiful words of encouragement that came from my Lover's lips, I realized I have been looking at it the wrong way. Or rather, I've been forgetting something major, something simple... like ( Read more... )

I'm on my new laptop, that I bought to be able to write where I want (it seems to flow easier when I'm typing...) although I DID just spend over an hour re-customizing the "look and feel" of my livejournal page while on this little computer for the first time at the downstairs table (as opposed to being stuck in one place on my desktop)... and I ( Read more... )

I have a small notebook that I keep in my purse, which has mainly been used for directions. (I also hope to use it as a net to catch certain thoughts or prose down into it...) Anyway... I wrote this a little while ago... I think I should change the ending, but here goes... I just let it flow ( Read more... )