Hold me happy, love me stoned, kiss me angry, don't leave me alone ( Read more... )

he used to forgot it it, now he spits it out onto the heat waves coming up from the floor.
and now you'll always be disgusting to him...
and you'll see it...read it...and agree.
and you know you never met a mother fuckin' asshole quite like me.

damn.
and today my heart and head are filled with all the thoughts you wished wouldn't come around.
im off to work.
its is too early for this.
i am twenty one years old.
damn.

ooh yeah?
well she isnt here now, and you excited and smiling, are too cute to be left alone.
im flattered, and flattened, and forced to agree.
you just look like someone worth more than somethings.
if you change your mind give me a ring.
thrown away paper and pieced together the apathy.
what of having to make someone be, simply near you.

its real now ( Read more... )

burnaby broke away i felt him, he did.
and with him he took the better parts that we hid.
with mystery manner and an amazing kiss.
i watched burnaby cease to live.
burnaby busted up, i saw him, diminish.
lift harder, pull with alittle bit more of your hip.
give up giving and all of us missed.
burnaby's gone, ran away with the kid.

words so often said and so seldom felt, leave golfball sized welts on the better part of me.
they burn their way into my being, and make it impossible to forgot.
i am branded with those words.
i am stranded living with their meaning.
i haven't felt marked for death in years.

'burnaby's death, a wretched mess ( Read more... )

pieced in, left for the next, the thought of the nest i sleep in comforts me.
im afraid i wont be able to breathe.
settle on the pillow as it dries you up.
you are only important enough to be.
seek it.
fall asleep sick.
let the next day end, so i can be asleep again.
to win as of lately is simply to fall asleep again.

a mouth full of blood.

who i am to suggest anything.

or hurt.

worth only what your given.

live only for the minute.

learn to let go of the ability to dream