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Find A WaySuicide is one of those topics spoken about almost casually: hanging from the end of a rope, bloated and facedown at the bottom of a pool, in the master bedroom with an open bottle of seroquel - and did you watch the Italians get their heads handed to them this morning in the World Cup? Still, after every time-of-death pronounciation ( Read more... )

Wanderlust

In two hours I get on a plane to Los Angeles. My first real vacation in more than nine months. If you're in town, give me a buzz.

Tabula Rasa (2/2)

To close out this set of entries: For the rest of my life, no one will care about the C- I got in organic chemistry or the A- in quantum physics exactly one year later. And that's just how I want things to be.

Tabula Rasa (1/2)

Two days ago, I got into medical school.

***I haven't been sleeping much at all since then. What little I've had was uneasy and short, punctuated by surreal nightmares that left me waking up covered in sweat. It's almost as though a strange cocktail of hormones has been released into my bloodstream. I'm sleepless but running on ( Read more... )

Exit WoundsIt's a lazy Sunday and I'm in a trauma bay watching an army of scrub-clad grunts go to work on a limp victim. The room is brightly lit, with fluorescent lamps making the star-shaped droplets of blood on the floor shine like patent leather. There is no music, no soundtrack to the madness; only the rustle of clothing and the deep baritone ( Read more... )

95% Confidence Intervals (1/3)

I'm half an hour early for my first date in almost a year and a half, time enough to walk around for a bit and calm my nerves.The lobby of the Cincinnati Art Museum is crowded and hot, and I make an immediate beeline for the coat check desk where an elegant black man in a smoking jacket takes a quick look behind him ( Read more... )

So that I can remember today: Sun (Acoustic)

Autumn

"That's my roommate shivering" says J. into the phone, "he's wearing a merino wool sweater, a jacket, jeans and wool socks. And we still don't really have heat yet. They're putting in the furnace some time next week."

I pause in the middle of the living room to stare at him, then sit down at my desk and devour the rest of my mac n' cheese" ( Read more... )

The Minor Leagues1,2I'm coming off of a 14 hour shift in the emergency room; half a day of enrolling patients in trials, HIV counseling and being on my feet. There's a faint line on the back of my lab coat that wasn't there this morning, the off-white bisected by a brown streak of dirt and sweat. My handlers are still ambivalent on how to properly ( Read more... )