i once heard this story about this man, a short ruff fellow that felt that all his tries to take his life by the arms and spin it around in a field of glee were out of reach. his attempts were painted with shame and guilt when these helpers, not friends, come to help, as they do, and they're off as swiftly as they came. so there he stands right, ( Read more... )

it seems harder to find someone that fits the parameters that i have set in my mind. the world is changing to where my wants are becoming extinct. more and more each day it seems to me that the person that i envision will save this soul is or was never there. but the real threat here is the initiation. when the time comes, i put forth no effort to ( Read more... )

only hours away from going to a new place, well actually not a new place but new considering i haven't been there in a few years. i'll be off and in a matter of days i'll be right back again. hopefully in that span i'll have all the fun i can, maybe even more than expected, maybe. if all goes well i'll come back and finish up October Sky. if all ( Read more... )

do the butterfly

well just got back. it's a nice place, rather large. i met some nice family members that i'll be living down the street from. i got to see my new home and got to sleep there. the whole time i was there i kept thinking about her and the times, the words said and not, and how this year might repeat my first year. the loneliness is going to be ( Read more... )

i have about 2 or 3 hours until i head off for a 2 or 3 hour trip to a place where freedom is possible, under the right conditions. i hope i have everything for the trip, i'd hate to get there and forget one small item that determines my future and possible free roaming ability. hopefully the events of today will find their way to the bets possible ( Read more... )

just won four games straight in crazy eights. then lost three. one was disqualified because of foul play. gosh, three post in the same day. i need to find a hobby ( Read more... )

I have a killer headache, I believe I have cancer festering in the back of my eye. it happens all the time but goes away after awhile. I had a dream where i played with some dogs and cats with my friends mom while she sat and watched then walked off with others. my hands had a burning sensation. i looked it up. i think someone else has succeeded ( Read more... )

well, here i am. a place where the magic happens...or molestation, both are blurring into the same thing these days. currently this has been quite a summer, unfortunately I’ve been sleeping through most of it. i go to bed at 8 AM and get up at 4 PM. not a way to spend a day. recently I’ve been thinking about doing something creative each day, you ( Read more... )