i told him. i actually told him that i loved him. ive been going back and forth all day today as to exactly how stupid i am or how genius i am. stupid because if he has absolutely no feelings for me, ill never see him again. ever. and how genius i am because now my part is done. i dont have to do anything from now on in a sense. im so tired ( Read more... )

so we went to the abbey last night. fucking awesome time. stephanie and kathy....gorgeous as always. ruben....highly fuckable....and sleazy too! i heard about you and jose. haha. j/k. anyway. some slight drama with the boy but it all worked out. i spill my guts to him and tell him how much i like him and what do i get in response? a text ( Read more... )

my grandpa passed away on friday. my birthdays tomorrow. everything at work is changing. im overwhelmed. i just want to sleep the whole day tomorrow. shut off my phone and pray that when i wake up its march 30th.

i havent updated this shit in a while. lets see. went to joses on sunday. some lil boy got alcohol poisoning. always fun. we were all trying to take care of him and make sure he didnt stop breathing. wasnt the first time ive halped take care of someone with alcohol poisoning. i guess he was alright the next morning tho ( Read more... )

im bored. and i hardly update this anymore. mainly cos i feel kinda bad about using someone elses computer. but im gettin over that pretty quickly. work has progressively gotten worse and worse over the past month. it used to just feel like a chore and now its actually at that point of just making me miserable ( Read more... )

i cooked over a hundred hamburgers today at work. our store had a bbq and i cooked for everyone. me and 2 other people actually. im surprised tho cos it was fun. ehh, maybe its cos i like to cook. intresting. if being a chef was that fun all the time, i might consider doing that. but i know it wouldnt be that kewl.

my sisters in the hospital. they say her kidney is slightly rejecting. i hope more than anything that it starts working again. shes been through too much. she deserves for this one to work.

yes im aware. im an asshole. however, i fully admit to it and accept it as a part of who i am. yet i believe that everyone has that potential to be an asshole or bitch or whatever. its just a matter of when you choose to bring it out. im rarely an asshole unless provoked. i believe that i treat people with the same respect that they treat me ( Read more... )

in the words of ice cube.....

today was a good day.