It's so hard to put a smile on, go out and play pretend for everyone else's sake when you just want to be home, crawl into a ball in bed, and cry yourself to sleep.

Ok so I think I've hit my limit. I don't know what to do with my life, my future. Sure about two years ago I came to college knowing fully well that I wanted to become a nurse. Sounds perfect, I thought. Well, I thought wrong. My first year went well enough. Met the grades I needed to have to keep my scholarship and then some. Still, I hardly ( Read more... )

I hate him,
I hate her,
but most of all,
I hate myself,
for even caring at all.

\/ & ♥

Ok so New Years was about 2 and a 1/2 months ago but I've decided to give this whole resolution thing a shot. Besides my usual resolution of just being happy I've come up with a few more. Here they are ( Read more... )

I'm at work now and Jenny came to visit me. Nikki is on the phone with her. Everything has been pretty good for now. I'm on another search for icons. It's a minor obsession. Not sure what I'm going to do tonight but I do know that tomorrow night I'm going to the Justin concert with Jenny, Dani, Nikki, Meli, Mary and Christy. I'm super duper ( Read more... )

Okay, so I am officially 20 years old as of 12:00AM. Super exciting? Not really but its all been good so far. C-lo was the first to wish me a Happy Birthday, followed by the rest of the crew I hung out with tonight. Right now I am watching The Little Mermaid. It's a tradition I started a few years ago (to watch my favorite movie on my birthday ( Read more... )

So I just got my own star in the universe. Got to name it myself. Here's the snazzy name I picked out for it: Kalista Panthea Farsiris Monique. The name means Most Beautiful One, All Goddess, Princess Advisor. Haha I love it. It's everything that I am. lol Hope you all like it!

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**Reminder, move along, get ahead, and so on ( Read more... )

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