I can not relate to anything that I used to be. Lol let's be honest. I cant relate to anything i am right now. I cant think to be anything than I am at the moment but who DO i who do you think you are? Surely no one that you think you are. Do you need help? Blink twice. Once and Ill let you be.. three and I'll forget you ever existed. blink blink ( Read more... )

166.5 damn, i wrote an entry. i don't feel like rewriting it. i just want to say.....help me. and look into damn eds before you tell me i am not fat. it has nothign to do w/ that. it was better written at first. but i need a drug to sedate me. ciao ( Read more... )

i feel like such a waste. verge of tears. lost inside myself. i lost myself years ago at one point it was possible to slow down and give myself time to catch up but i'm too far ahead of myself now. i feel like i'm suffocating. i can't dig myself out of this hole. it's a damn crater. it's my mind. my life. memories pile on top of me and i just want ( Read more... )

don't go looking if you aren't ready to find something. be prepared for what you aren't looking for. be prepared for what you'll find if you look. whatever. point is- good advice. men. i can't say otherwise but I don't feel as if it is just. I like javier because he likes the way i talk. i love the fact that he told me he was in awe of me. oh dear ( Read more... )

dear god,

i am having a problem w/ my marriage. help me.

love,
a creation of yours

i don't feel comf in this. aff. damn.

I am a fiend. I need a drug. I need not to feel. I need someone to help me out in this perdicament and I need HER to call me back. I need dealers to have a steady supply. I need dealers who deliver and who work on a auto refill basis. That would be grand. I would love to live off of pills and herbs and I would love to just not feel. Problem being, ( Read more... )

before further questions....yes it was because of weed

no comment except for FUCKING SHIT

written 6/11 ( Read more... )

i wish i came w/ an on/off button. i would be more than happy if i could press it now. just get away. i just want an off button....no option of coming back ever. i'm tired of living like this. he loves me. everyone loves me because no one knows me. i'm not nice. i'm not anything you think i am. i am this. this is what i have become. pathetic. sad. ( Read more... )