It is driving me crazy and I dont' want to drive anyone else crazy...but I think I am in a relationship now and it feels so weird! Not weird bad but weird good and weird like a little nervous. I really dig this guy right now...and the fact that it's been over three weeks is a real accomplishment for me! lol...It sounds silly. I feel a little ( Read more... )

You know when things are just going really well and you feel like you are sort of just waiting for the ground to drop out from underneath you? That is sort of how I feel at the moment. Job is good...living situation is awesome...boy situation is looking up :-) Who could ask for more? I know that I need to just let go and enjoy the feeling but ( Read more... )

Here is my question...do you think that it is possible to get so introspective, that you lose objectivity and start to enter denial or rationalization? I date...a lot...too much actually. It is literally to the point where I have no energy to go out and meet someone new. Reflecting on the past year has made me think of a few things. First, of ( Read more... )

Well, at least lets have an update on the state of "me"...lol. I am actually feeling very good about myself lately. I have worked out for two weeks now! My body is starting to regain it's muscle which is so great. I just feel really good and I know that will radiate from me. Second...I seem to have met someone who I connect with so well it is ( Read more... )

I just met a new friend...maybe something more, maybe not. But for the first time I have a different feeling inside of me and I am not too sure how to describe it. He brings out a lot of fear inside of me. Fear that I have done pretty well hiding...All of a sudden I want to do all the things I was always too afraid to do. And now, I'm sitting ( Read more... )

The world makes it really hard to be alone. The thing is...that we aren't ever alone...we have friends and family...and somehow we have let the world tell us that it isn't enough...that we have to have "the one". I have a lifetime ahead of me and all I can think of is finding a guy to spend time with. And why do I not have one? Because I seem ( Read more... )

my heart hurts...why do people allow themselves to fall for people who aren't going to fall for them back. Why do i continually invest my feelings in situations that are not going to turn out the way I want them to. Why are the people i feel a connection with...well why don't they feel it too? I am so scared that I am going to end up alone. And ( Read more... )

never mind

Alright so I am aware that these entries tend to be on the serious side...but i'm in an emotional state. I just talked to my parents over something stupid like a credit card application and i started crying! There was no reason for it! And last night seeing my friends at SMC was a bad idea. I can't decide whether I am actually doing myself more ( Read more... )

Well it took long enough but I think I finally have figured out my sh*t. I can't believe that this last week i have been looking for a relationship online! What was I thinking exactly? I met a wonderful guy but the interesting thing is that...all this online dating crap. It's crap...I didn't think it was possible but somehow we have found yet ( Read more... )