Well after a nice period of mania i'm coming down, and wearing something I haven't worn in years. Perhaps I shouldn't wear it, after all I don't believe in this particular faith, but it's special, it may be a cheap, plastic Rosary as opposed to a lovely on, but my Uncle brought it before he was, well, murdered, and it is special, when I wear it I ( Read more... )

What is it with people asking me if i've 'found someone'. I find someone every day it doesn't mean i'm going to start engaging in sexual relations with them. It just really gets to me that they think I need to be with someone to make myself happy, I don't, to make myself happy I need to loose the excess and start going out a little more, but that's ( Read more... )

"If you where here you would know how happy I am when I talk to you, I love you ( Read more... )

It's never enough to admit i'm a failure to you is it? Never enough to repeatedly state the fact whilst i'm crying, whilst im pleading, whilst i'm apologising. I'm a failure, a failure, I fail at everything I do, i'll fail at college, heck i've given up on driving so i'm a failure there too, even if the tin cans of death scared me more than ( Read more... )

Blergh. My apologies for the seeming downer i'm on at the moment, usually I can shrug it off, but not this time. Meh, of recent it seems people i'd completely forgotten about have gotten my MSN from other people and have taken to talking to me, which is quite nice, always lovely to talk to people, but i'm finding myself pretending to be happy, ( Read more... )

I'm having one of those nights, where I can feel and hear the blood going through my veins, feel it pulsing without touching them, where I can see the bluey-green lines through the skin of my hands and I can feel the blood going round. My hands are back to shaking, which is just ace, and that's about it. Gah, I really want to bleed tonight, ( Read more... )

I didn't go to the meet, which is horrible as I did actually want to go *pouts* I wanted to meet my Sharlie and huggle Emma, and remind Craig of how special he is and all that rubbish, so that's flown out the nest. Other than that been having problems with father again, I posted more on that at RYL owing to this stupid place not letting me log in * ( Read more... )

What defines beauty? What makes one person beautiful and the next not? Is it purely physical or is it something deeper ( Read more... )