I Hate Anxiety Disorders

[oojosh2002oo]

this problem i have is so bad, i hate it. and it makes me hate myself, it makes me feel like a piece of a shit. it makes me feel like i have nothin left, it chokes my true reality out of focus, and makes self hatred take over. i see my world blur outta site and suicidal thoughts in to vision, its not the real me, its like another person made of

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[ms_angel_baby]

hey hun we need to get u help for this because im getting worried and scared ,imah look up some coping tactics for it tonite
luv always
sami

[oojosh2002oo]

sam u know i apprieciate the hell outta this, im only like that when i get deep into thought. its just not fair to u for me to have breakdowns. i think its just all my aggression that i have suppressed for most of my life slippin out in a twisted way. i always put others in front of me, and u know that, but when i do i seem to build up little bits of negativity and i ignore them until i cant stand it and i just break down, but when i come back to reality i find myself thinkin again. but only this time i think of wut i have to appreiciate, and there are there 3 things that come to mind instantly, u, ur love, and our future together. i've said it b4 and i'll say it again u save me, if i didnt have u to reflect on when i calm down, i would have to really think bout wut i have goin good for me.
i love nothing more than u,
josh