Well well well... we meet again... I think I only write in here when things are absolutely crazy and well things right now are nuts!! The one person in the world that I thought would never ever hurt me has really done the unthinkable.  Matt and I are broken up and he cheated on me.  He wont say it like that yet but he did.  Plain and simple.  He ( Read more... )

Is it bad that at most times I cant stand my sisters boyfriend.  I swear he never leaves... but when he does its only for about 2 hours.  It drives me nuts.  My parents left this morning and its like hes already moved in.  Lauren isnt even here right now and hes here... seriously? WHY? We fight all the time.  I swear he thinks he knows everything ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder what it is that ive done wrong.  Why do these things keep going on over and over and over? Im trying to fix things but they just keep on happening.  Its like no matter what I do its hurting someone on making someone upset where is all im trying to do is FIX things.  Everyone seems to be mad at me.  Like im just not good enough ( Read more... )

Its so hard to get everything in my head straight... when it all comes down to it what do i want? what do I want from him.. or him. what do i want for him.   what do i want in life. what do i want in the next month. what job do i want.  what do i do about my work now? what other job do I want to get  while at this one? WHAT! I cant make my mind up ( Read more... )

Well my dads home again.  So back through the yelling at the computer trying to find another job.  Lately I just try to stay out of the house.  On my days off I go and lay out or jet ski or go on the boat.. anything to not be here and listen to it all.  I kinda wish he would have taken the job in Salt Lake City.  If he would have I might have gone ( Read more... )

I need a vacation.

Every little thing is gonna be alright...

So im in the photography lab on wed trying to make up work that I missed and get the work due this week done when I hear that Matts dad got a HEART!! So crazy.  It truly is amazing. The whole situation is unreal.  So I left class (not getting any work done) and went home picked the sister up and went to the hospital.  I had to be there.  I had to ( Read more... )

I dont know if i should be writing this but I feel like I just need to get it all out.. ok so the boys dads in the hospital and has been for a few weeks now.  He was in there before for about a month and was doing better but now.. back in there.. we went to see him last friday and it scares me so much to be in there.  Everything about death freaks ( Read more... )

Well its been a super long time since ive written in here... a ton has happened some for the good and some for the bad. Well just started another semester.. ugh.  Not bad so far. A lot of good looking fellas... BUT Im set in that department.  I havent written about him yet.. im pretty happy with him.  Hes somethign im not use to... hes always  ( Read more... )