prom tonight...i am jealous.

just got done doing ebony's make up for tonights star studded event..

now im bored, and hot, and have NO plans :(

today = NATIONAL KISS DAY...kisses for everyone *muah*

im starting to think that maybe this will work out...that maybe it will be ok

i feel vulnerable and weak

i feel naked, i feel empty

i feel helpless and exposed

i feel desperate, needy, and ashamed

i feel abandoned

i feel betrayed

i feel torn

and i also feel broken...

but i really feel  A L O N E

today ive woken up refreshed and rejuvenated. ive decided to take sissy's advice...lifes too short to always be angery.

im sick of trying to change your mind...

is this what being a teenager is suppose to feel like?? is this what being 16 is suppose to feel like? if life is already this complicated and its only begining how am i suppose to make it through the rest of this crazy ass road without breaking down?? i though being 16 was suppose to be one of the best times of your life...oh, on the contrarty... ( Read more... )

today sucked...

BUT MY HAIR LOOKS CUTE :)

of course there are the exceptions (( which i like to call miracles )) but for the most part i believe that DREAMS DON'T COME TRUE

i have also finally realized that my parents have wasted their  T I M E,  E N E R G Y, and  M O N E Y on my stupid  D R E A M S  that are never going to come true...

im really not ok...

PROM WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN!!! i had such a good time, and i danced with lots of hot guys! lol hahaha, but this morning im really really tired and im not feelin too good lol AND YES, I WAS SOBER!!