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Sometimes the abyss creeps up and all you can do is listen to what it says.
I think I need a break from ...I don't know everything. I've been a very shitty friend lately I've been wrapped up in my own head so much that I can't even tell when people are trying to talk to me about something or maybe my brain is so stuck on other things I don't care. It's no wonder I have no friends and no one likes talking to me. Rob is ( Read more... ) -
Here's looking at you...
Not too many things have happened besides I'm probably about 1/3rd of the way done with my full arm tattoo or my sleeve. I go back in tomorrow for my second session. I feel like I talked too much last time so this time I'm going to bring an audiobook with me and try to tune it out as much as possible. Last time didn't go so well after a while just ( Read more... ) -
Over a year and Kavanaugh
It's been just over a year since Tiffany and I broke up. It feels weird. Considering I moved out four months ago just about and all of the things I mean to do before I moved, none of them have really happened to expect I've saved about 1000.00 in my bank account. I don't know if I'm going to make it to grad school by next fall but, I will ( Read more... ) -
To the boys and girls I'll never know
I am beyond proud of you and how far you have come. It doesn't matter what he did to you, what he made you say or what he said. You made it. You made it out of that room and here you are over a year later and you're still here. You're still fighting and you feel strong enough and angry enough some days to say something to that man. To look him in ( Read more... ) -
Finishing my own character developement.
I don't know what has changed. I don't know if I'm getting too lost inside of my head our what but I keep thinking something doesn't feel right. I know I don't write personal thoughts of myself that often anymore but this is something I need to work out so yeah. I'm writing a story from POV teenage boy and something about it is really fucking with ( Read more... ) -
I didn't think...
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It's been a while
It's been so long since I posted I almost didn't remember my password, however I seemed to have pulled it out of thin air and here I am. I don't know if I said this but, Tiffany and I moved back in with my dad in March and that was a big change. After that Zach and Jolynn whom I don't hate anymore but I don't think I ever really hated to begin with ( Read more... ) -
BFFC (Big Fat Fucking Cheater)
I was in the process of moving last week but I also had a lot of work to do in my current classes. The course load was in fact so big I chose to forego turning in a paper that was 30% of my grade in one class and take a zero rather then turn in something that wasn't up to par. Anyway apparently while doing my forums in my other class (online ( Read more... ) -
random musings...
They say the sun has gone to sleep and that this winter, is the first winter of many very cold ones to come. So I plan to remember this winter. All of the snow and sleet. The chill and the snow in places there shouldn't have been. I want to be able to tell my kids about the winter of 06 the winter after my mom died. How I went to Chicago and there ( Read more... ) -
here we go again.
My little sister and her boyfriend always find a way to try and make their hardships my problem. They got kicked out of their apartment and kept texting Tiffany (my partner) about it more or less inferring that they would like an invitation to stay ("We don't know what we're going to do", "we think we might have to live in the cart" etc..." so we ( Read more... )