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I don't always think about her being gone. But I always feel that empty feeling and frequently lost.
I go about my day like a near normal person (because you know I'm far from actual normal) and randomly things will remind me. I stop moving. Sometimes just for a moment. Sometimes I fall to pieces. And I never know when I will lose control for a ( Read more... ) -
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I can't look at other children without longing for her. Sometimes I can't even look at my own without longing for her.
My heart aches.
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Day 2
In addition to my usual busy, I've had a very sick baby. When she is a er now but not herself. She's lost a lot of weight through this and she really didn't have it to spare to begin with. She was already down to 18 lbs. I fear what she's at now. After trying web-diagnosis, I've assessed that she at least is fine neurologically. She's already had ( Read more... ) -
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I just offered some nursing assistance to one of my Facebook/high school friends and it made me think how much I've change since my first pregnancy. I planned to have an epidural and bottle feed my baby. I fought pacifiers and intended very firm discipline to include spankings. I listened to others about offering food at 3 months. And followed my ( Read more... ) -
New user name
I've created a new lj because I'd like to have one that I can attach to my Facebook. I've been doing some furniture refinishing and want to post about those as well as other projects like my buckskinning(turn deer hides into leather). I don't want to junk up my status page and I miss my lj interactions. I don't want to attach this one because there ( Read more... ) -
Old lady
I think there's an old lady haunting me. Okay, not haunting me but everywhere I turn there she is. I see her walking down the road. I see her in the stores. I think she's stalking me. Except she never looks at me. And she might be many different old ladies that I see different places. They all look the same. I can't tell them apart. Or maybe I'm ( Read more... ) -
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I had lots of funny things to share but they are gone from me now. I think I'll go take a nap instead. -
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"Why do boys do that? Why do they always have to justify everything? Why can't they just say they're sorry?" --Castle -
The mosquito bled human blood all over my car.....
I don't like bugs in the car, especially mosquitoes. My issue with them is that my youngest two receive very large hives from the bites. When one gets in the car, we try to kill it. Of course, all while driving down the road. I admit, I find the kill entertaining to see how much blood splatter we get ( Read more... )