Likes/ed the band Cadillac Blindside? Turns out the new guitar center store manager here in brookfield is the singer (Zaq Zrust) of the defunct band. I guess i shouldn't post my comments about him just yet. A plus, he knows my friend PJ from Rockford, and Peter knows Zaq too. Fuckin' musicians. Speaking of... I walked right into that one. So ( Read more... )

It's finally happened.  Mark and I broke up sunday.  I wouldn't have thought this could happen just a few months ago.  But a couple of weeks ago I knew it had to happen.  I've lost my best friend... but that happens.  Blah!  I'm surprisingly OK, for now.  I haven't even had a drink to usher in this "rebirth" as my mom calls it.  nancy hammer is so ( Read more... )

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I drink again. And I have been, mainly rum and cokes. Yum. there has been a lot of things going on in my life and i really don't feel like writing about them because it could fall into the wrong hands, which always will end up doing, so i'll keep it in my head. that is all for now...

of my former self. I got tipsy Tuesday night on cheap champagne in my living room with Peter. We were watching "kissing a fool" then wrestling then kissing. and i feel nothing...nothing at all. I'm blaming it on a blow to the head that I sustained Tuesday morning. I don't really feel guilty, I don't really feel that deep dark desire for Peter ( Read more... )

I helped watch the door for the Rockford Guitar Center Grand Opening from 7pm-12am Thursday Feb. 16th.  It was really cold but worth it.  Plus I'm getting paid milage for driving there and back to do it!  I finally was able to talk to Mark some about all the shit going on in my head and how I'm seeing our relationship.  It was sweet that he's had ( Read more... )

I feel pretty confident in saying that this birthday was the worst ever. But i still have many ahead of me so i can look forward to that. I did get a lot of flowers for my birthday, i made sure to tell mark exactly what i wanted. and now i have a beauitful little rose/flower bush sitting in my kitchen. I was supposed to go out with peter last ( Read more... )

Not really but it has been a long time. We don't have the internet at home anymore so my spoiled ass self has to go to the library to check email and write on here ( Read more... )

i was a spaz last week in regards to all the mark being away from me thing. I guess I'm slowly getting used to it, I have to, there is no other way around it. At least Mark found a nice place to live. The owner will be living in the lower and we'll be in the upper. Apparently the guy wants to meet me as well. I doubt that'll happen before I ( Read more... )

I'm trying to keep myself busy with housework and adding an additional 2 jobs to my plate. Mark left for Rockford last Friday. I visited him Saturday and Sunday. Looked for apartments in Rockford and wasn't too impressed. Perhaps we'll find a decent place in Beloit ( Read more... )