Thank God!!! No more fraternity. Tonight was the last shibang with the fraternity and I had to ruin it. I hate myself, but leaving the fraternity if the first step in gaining my sanity. Finally, no more responsibilties, fake encouragement, being used, or crap. I am done and ready for the next part of my life. The frat had been good, bad, and ( Read more... )

Don't call me a complete freak, but an Avril Lavigne song just spoke to me. I know, it is a scary thing! For real though, she has a song called "mobile" where she is talking about things in her life changing out of her control like a mobile. This is my life! I have submitted to God and my life is changing out of my control. Just by reading ( Read more... )

Does it really matter? That is what I was thinking when I witnessed two more Christians get in a "heated" debate over calvinism. Why would you even start to get all worked up over something that ultimately doesn't matter! Either way a person's salvation is not affected! I have heard people discussing or avoiding the discussion EVERYDAY for ( Read more... )

I feel like I just want to walk over to my bed, pick up my fluffy blue body pillow, and punch it until I fall down from exhaustion. I have been so frustrated this semester about the actions of others. Their actions make me either mad at them or at myself. My anger is something I am finally learning to control and that is by one word, love. I ( Read more... )

I officially felt the last straw that broke the camel's back today! It is difficult for me to see what God is doing with my heart right now, but I feel like I am at the lowest of the low. So many things have went wrong and have not came out the way I wanted them to. Let us begin with pledge. We started out with 13 and now we have 4. I am so ( Read more... )

Well, well, well, I made it through freshman move-in, orientation, and the first two weeks of classes. A lot of things have been going on, but only a few are inportant enough to put in my sacred livejournal. First of all, Phillips is sucking me dry. The class I am taking with him this semester is "writing for the workplace." It is an awesome ( Read more... )

There are only two more days until classes begin and i am already getting nervous. From my experience over the summer and so far though RA/RD stuff i am not optimistic in my performance this semester. I feel dumb. I keep telling myself and everyone else that i can do this, but deep down inside i have no clue if i am strong enough in english to ( Read more... )

SO this was the last week of m-fuge. It was kinda bitter sweet! Bitter that all the m-fuge workers and campers would be leaving, but sweet that i am getting my life back! I have enjoyed my job for the most part. I just could not get my head straight the entire summer. I was snappy and crude all summer. I think it was because the people that i ( Read more... )

So it is official! Today started the last week of m-fuge camp this summer. I thought the last week was going to come and go, boy was i wrong. Thursday the skies decided to open up and rain the hardest i have ever seen. CSU flooded within 20 minutes. I was on duty that night and the drama began. We worked until almost 9pm trying to suck up and ( Read more... )

wow...I have been so wrapped up in myspace.com that i forgot about the world of my live journal. This thing has always been there for me to vent and just let it all out, less painful than a punching bag and nicer than yelling at my opponents. Where shall I begin? I LOVE Jesus is a GREAT start! He is my King, my World, and my loving Father! He ( Read more... )