ok, its hard to admit youve failed. Im struggling with that I cant even teach aiden to fake being empathetic unless its in his best interest. he honestly doesnt care what happens to the rest of us. Finn on the other hand freaks if he thinks he hurt anybody. and cady feels guilty two out of three ill take it

Ok surgery is on tuesday. they are talking three feet of snow today. feet is what you grow fabric in or children not snow. just an fyi from the glacier. btw Santa if your listening i would love to see my solider for christmas. if not him being warm and safe would be enough thanks. a very tired wife

im ok. tired.

fell hanging curtains my left shoulder feels like someone took a hammer to it. pain sucks

Ok so I cant sleep and he wont slash cant hold me. we had a discussion over aiden again and im the one who cant sleep. god ive put on weight he cant think or see me as sexy anymore. and no he didnt say this but he did say i need more exercise. health reasons and hes right so I cant be angry can I. Im not worth much right now it seems like all i do ( Read more... )

ok its not quite five and I cant sleep but hey give me slack for so literary license and if ya dont then fuck it yoou dont need to be reading this. So for those still following. We closed on our house today. I am happy,mellow greatful, thoughtful, and pondering today. I have thought of people today special people that have loved and helped me along ( Read more... )

havent heard from my husband sence wend. I have to go home on tues mto an empty house and it made my mom cry. Im going to miss them so bad. god i miss joe he would know what to say to make everything ok. im not sure that things will ever be the same for my folks. my moms a tough old bird but i dont know how tough. another hit another day. Damn I ( Read more... )

I have forgotten how hard it is waiting on phone calls that may or maynot come and trying so hard not to be disappointed when they dont. I cant wait till we are all in one place again. Mom and dad are as well as can be expected and im honestly not much help as i would like to be out here. There world is limited but undercontrol. I dont know what to ( Read more... )

anybody that says that army life is easy is lying out their out ass. I miss my husband desperately. Yess im having a lovely time with my folks but it doesnt mean i miss him less in a way it causes me to miss him more. Joe I love you stay safe and ill see you in a week and two days love ya spice always

im here dad is doing ok mom is doing much better. i cant get untired. I miss joe horribly i turn around to tell him something and cant drives me batshit and by the time i hear from him ive forgotten.