Im thinking tonight. We got our apartment were ready to move forward with the rest of our lives. ok my commute is going to suck its an hour ten each way so probably more like an hour and half so ill need to leave at nine thirty to get there by eleven and ill be getting home at about that time at night. I got a good word today Joe may be home by nov ( Read more... )

You hold your breath to the time of day that you can hear a certain voice and everything is alright with your world. In a laugh you will never hear but you can feel a smile from ten thousand miles. Deployments suck and they test love like no other experience ive ever had even death . All i can say is were six weeks out from finally putting this ( Read more... )

Joe loves me
A spontanious kiss from Aiden
A cady quote( No papa I cant swim but I can drown real good)
Tylonel pn and realising I need real pain managment
things are coming together for nashville

And heres a special one Octavialuna I owe you one belated birthday. Im so clueless
also the headache is gone

my body has a new response to stress chest pains and not being able to breathe. Yay rah panic attatcks. the chest pains worry me though as you know my mom was a recent heartattack a second one. im moving shortly. to nashville. my only saving grace is the children and joe all love me very much. aiden is not taking the move well. one min hes fine ( Read more... )

As a sit and type this im tired my headaches and ive put everybody to bed three times.scratch that they are still not asleep and its almost ten. My wedding has been pushed back again to maybe December or Jan . We need to acap and clear. Now there is a monkey wrench in child care. Yay rah. My folks will be out in a few weeks if mom is well enough ( Read more... )

ok car vndelized head hurts and no homecoing for the 101st
im sick of the army
that is all

Last night was a dark night thats all im going to say about that. marks uncle dropped dead in church this morning. i dont know what to say to that. i still am having issues. im calling my shrink. the good news is im loved. even if i dont understand it.

For those who dont know aiden only needs three hours of sleep a night to live it seems. I on the other hand require five and cady being cady has decided never to sleep again and I quote "momma it waste time". I cant argue there but im in a sleep deprived haze. The good news is its not cancer. The bad news what the fuck is wrong with me continues. ( Read more... )

when your so tired the that the truth wont go away. Ok i have a question. No maybe more of a statement. Im the bone weary type of tired and the man who made bras was a masocist and not in a fun way. Mamaw Gossage passed away today. I loved the old lady . This was marks Mothers mother the kids great Grandma. I hope I lived my life the way that I ( Read more... )

I want a day to myself
where I am not a mother
I sound selfish and self-serving
I have had enough
i cant keep up
Im tired im sick and I quit
consider this my resignation

darla zane blankenship
fed up