Every time I let myself focus on it, I start crying my face off. I just. I don't. I don't have any words. And I feel like I should. But everything sounds so fucking cliched. It's not mine ( Read more... )

( I don't remember falling, just all of sudden I'm at the bottom of this pit.. )

Working overnights has been really messing with my head. I'd like to say it's been making me crazy, but I'm sure the crazy has just been laying dormant, waiting for a spark. What's really been getting me is conflicting emotions about the same thing. It's hard to say how exactly I feel about some things anymore-- my feelings are constantly changing ( Read more... )

I haven't been sleeping well lately, which is causing awesome mood swings. I have no concrete feelings about any subject right now. It is weird. And a little scary. It also raises many deep introspective thoughts.

...Which all lead to the same question: if I assault a framed canvas until we are both bloodied, is it art, or a biohazard?

I've been feeling really light headed for the last couple of days. I may even go as far to say mildly dizzy, and at times, like I could pass out. I was a bit worried that maybe it was a blood pressure thing, but today my ears started popping on the train, which leads me to believe it is some sort of congestion/inner ear madness. Still incredibly ( Read more... )

Huh.

I ate a pot cookie, and then I was standing around eating chocolate chips thinking, "I am too high to do laundry... but I'm going to try anyway."
And then I blew a fuse.

( Win. )

Everything happens all at once.

I've been trying to write a lot more lately, but have been generally failing. I've even gone back, looking through half-written stuff, thinking I can just expand on what's already there. But, I seem to be having major concentration issues. I can't centre myself for long enough for anything cohesive to come out.

SD and I have been slowly writing a ( Read more... )