oh god i dont even know why i am still writing in this damn journal. everything is different from the time in which i created this. once again summer is upon us, fucking us over in every way possible. The sweat drips down your back and gives you little shirt puddles. It makes you smell, and will make your eyes sting like a banshee (if it drips ( Read more... )

i have been working at arby's. riding my bike places. having a generally good time. ups and downs. sometimes i still miss mike. and he tends to pop into my brain randomly... but not as often anymore. i have declared to some people that i am over it. in some ways i am ( Read more... )

its been so hard without mike. he broke up with me on the 15 of april and i am still not really past it. i feel like he deserted me when i needed him the most. he told me he would be there to support me and then left me to just deal with it all on my own, on top of a broken heart. the only thing that helps with the pain is telling myself how ( Read more... )

im sick and my body feels so tired. i miss mike terribly. im supposed to go see my dad today but i dont wanna so im being really lazy. no pot today, ive been smokin too much. well anyways im not gonna seek it out. if people are smoking around me and it gets offered, how can i refuse ( Read more... )

really sick. staying at the twins dads. comment and talk to me if you want. i love you mike!!!!

well im over at taylor's dorm. last night we partied hearty and she got sick. a little later i was hella thirsty so i started drinking this smirnoff. it was good and went down like soda. just that little bit was too much for me. so i got sick too ( Read more... )

im over at matts really depressed. mike and i broke up for good this time. its been pretty bad, our relationship. this is the fourth time we've broken up, and its for sure now i think.

i mean yes, it is true that i have been out of sorts since i got back ( Read more... )

i havent gone to school yet today. this is the first day this year i have missed any classes. i have really been trying hard this year so far, schoolwork-wise. i am sure i will end up getting off my ass because i have a test today and i do not feel like having to accept the class average as a grade, especially when the class average is usually ( Read more... )

today was a fun and interesting day. this morning it only took about 20 minutes to put in my contacts compared to yesterday's hour. yay! might be getting the hang of these silly gadgets! anyways my dad decided he didnt want me lazin around the house so i decided to go to the mall with jason to drop off his applications. we didnt realize that ( Read more... )

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