I fuckin' hate hippocrites... I don't really want to go into details why but lets just say... I'm not as bad as everyone thinks I am/was... There are people who made me feel like such a low piece of scum that have now made me feel worse not because of what I did but because of lectures I got after doing so... and now they are 10x no wait prolly ( Read more... )

School is starting, i worked this last weekend and was just really stressed... this week if i seem to blow you off please don't worry its just this weekend took alot out of me and i really want to be around people...bad week to feel like this but nothin' much i can do about it... when i'm ready to be around people i'll be around... trust me... but ( Read more... )

ok so I'm not mad at anyone i'm just gonna get this out. I'm sick of reaching out to people and wanting to be their friend. I'm done with that bull shit so I am now gonna stop. I'm here and those who I do notice that want to be mine and i don't feel like a burden on I will continue with the friendship but otherwise... I'm here I want to be anyone's ( Read more... )

I need to update more often. Lets see here whats new with me? NOTHING! but i did have a very awesome weekend. Couple weeks ago was my grandma's birthday and matt and my dad's birthday was the following week and matt was suppose to go with me to madison for my grandma's birthday but couldn't because of his stupid boss... Anywho his sister gave him 2 ( Read more... )

Nothin' much to say here, Things with me and Matt are good, I'm starting to think things but I really just need to talk to him, and I know its just those stupid things girls think every once in a while... oh and we have a mouse in our house, and yeah... i'll give that story later... time for bed!

Hope everyone had a Happy 4th! It was a long day but I've never had a more relaxing, wonderful day. Ever since I can remember I have always dreamed of a night like Monday, a night under the stars watching the fourth of July fireworks while listening to patriotic music and being in the arms of my man. I couldn't ever imagine a better night. Well, I ( Read more... )

I hate it when people treat me as if i don't have feelings. And that their feelings are the only thing that matter. I hate it when people pick on me thinking that i won't care. Yea, I usually dont but! somethings people pick on me with sucks and makes me feel really bad. And it just gets worse from there. I like hanging out with people and such but ( Read more... )

Ahhh memories...

I'm working on a scrapbook of Matt and I.... Wow does time fly by. I remember all the drama... and now for me its kinda all disapeared... as bad as it was I don't think I'd change a thing. I learned alot. and realized alot. And I am proud to say who I am now.

This is to anyone who knows me ( Read more... )

Sorry If anyone has thought that I was bitching about bein' away from Matt for the month. I didn't mean too. I was just saying what was on my mind... Sorry if that was a sin. I know there are lots of other people who have to be farther from their loved ones than 150miles. I'm very lucky to have what I have. And I usually smile, not cry. So I wasn' ( Read more... )